Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds.-Philippians 4:6&7
WILDFLOWERR_B posted that verse yesterday evening. I read it as I continued to be in a state of fear over Saturday's triathlon. I prayed and have since experienced peace...God's peace...about tomorrow. (Thanks, Wildflower!)
As I look at tomorrow's race, I still think I could be last in my group. I think I'll finish near 2 hours, and if I 'hit' 2 hours... well, last year that'd have put me last in my age group. I am tired of being so close to the back, and I will definitely be working on speed in the coming months! But, I WILL celebrate my achievements. It was still less than a year ago that I was sitting on the couch, not exercising at all, and weighing almost 30 pounds more. What I have accomplished is amazing! And I am thrilled! I will be proud of myself!
As far as the swim, I think God led me to an online blog last night. I didn't even save it! But, the author was talking about her first triathlon in 2009 (I think). She mentioned that the water temperature was only 71 and she did not have a wetsuit on. She said it was cold to start with and she had trouble finding a rhthym, but eventually did and completed the swim just fine.
I'm expecting our water to be slightly warmer - maybe 73? (It was 71 yesterday and 72 today - and we're supposed to have a high of 87 today and low of 62 tonight.) And I have been visualizing the swim that I DID complete. I was quite comfortable after I got going that last time! And, I KNOW I can do it again.
I will try not to worry (or even think!) about coming in last in my age group. If I do, I'll be disappointed, but mainly I'll be THRILLED that I completed that swim! It is a HUGE mental hurdle for me!
I REALLY appreciate all of the comments on my "I'm Scared" post yesterday. You are all so supportive and SP is an amazing support system. THANK YOU!!!
Aspen29 left this as part of her message: "I see self doubt and see you get frustrated with yourself (like on your group bike ride or your open water swim) but them you end out totally killing it." This is so true! In the past, I haven't even tried things that I wasn't sure about! Now, I get scared, but I get out there and do it anyway...and I SUCCEED! I feel so strong! Sometimes I even feel like SuperWoman!
So, this is another step to overcoming my fears... and to helping me believe in myself. I can't wait to give you all the report tomorrow!!! Again, your prayers & comments mean so much to me!