Did some soul searching..realized I'm not a runner.
Tuesday, May 03, 2011
I have been doing some 'soul searching' for lack of a better label the last week or so and I've come to the realization that I don't love running. There. I said it.
I. Don't. Love. Running.
And that's okay.
I do it because I can. Because I can, I feel like I should. But, in the end, I just don't enjoy it. I'm trying to pound a square peg into a round hole and it's just not making me happy.
I love the gym. I like to go up and spend 40 minutes on the elliptical or the crossramp and for some reason I never felt like that was good enough. I just made myself believe that if I wasn't running I wasn't doing what I should be doing. Part of my problem is that I'm not consistent. I'm not consistent with my working out beause I put too much pressure on myself to do things that I feel like I should be doing, rather than things that will work for me..things that will make me happy and keep me engaged.
So. I made a couple of decisions:
1. I will run the 5k I'm signed up for on May 15th.
2. I am not running the half marathon I considered running in November.
3. I am buying a bike. I love the idea of family bike rides and riding in the morning on my own before the kids get up!
4. I bought a belly dancing workout dvd because I've always wanted to try and and I LOVED it. So, I will be buying a hip scarf with the beads so I can shimmy to my heart's content!
In the end I have to do what is working for me- NOT what everyone else doing or what I think I SHOULD be doing. It's a constant battle for me not to fall into this trap..but now that I'm aware of it, I'm hoping I can keep myself from falling into it again!