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Did some soul searching..realized I'm not a runner.

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

I have been doing some 'soul searching' for lack of a better label the last week or so and I've come to the realization that I don't love running. There. I said it.

I. Don't. Love. Running.

And that's okay.

I do it because I can. Because I can, I feel like I should. But, in the end, I just don't enjoy it. I'm trying to pound a square peg into a round hole and it's just not making me happy.

I love the gym. I like to go up and spend 40 minutes on the elliptical or the crossramp and for some reason I never felt like that was good enough. I just made myself believe that if I wasn't running I wasn't doing what I should be doing. Part of my problem is that I'm not consistent. I'm not consistent with my working out beause I put too much pressure on myself to do things that I feel like I should be doing, rather than things that will work for me..things that will make me happy and keep me engaged.

So. I made a couple of decisions:

1. I will run the 5k I'm signed up for on May 15th.

2. I am not running the half marathon I considered running in November.

3. I am buying a bike. I love the idea of family bike rides and riding in the morning on my own before the kids get up!

4. I bought a belly dancing workout dvd because I've always wanted to try and and I LOVED it. So, I will be buying a hip scarf with the beads so I can shimmy to my heart's content!

In the end I have to do what is working for me- NOT what everyone else doing or what I think I SHOULD be doing. It's a constant battle for me not to fall into this trap..but now that I'm aware of it, I'm hoping I can keep myself from falling into it again!
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    Oh gosh, I went through something similar lately, only I ended up on the other side of the equation. Whatever activity we do, it HAS to be something that we enjoy and want to keep doing.

    I think this is fabulous that you've been able to come to this decision. Good for you! I hope you rock the belly dancing!

    Congrats on doing what's right for you.
    3733 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5335051
    There are so many fun ways to be active, why torture yourself with one you don't like! Good for you!
    3733 days ago
    I cannot remember how many times I did something because it was expected or was what everyone else was doing. You'd think at 59 that would not be a problem. Since I joined Sparks in January, I have really worked on learning who I am & what I want to do.

    I've learned some amazing things about myself over the past 3+ months. I'm losing weight, however, I'm doing it for me & not for others.

    Have a great day friend!
    3733 days ago
    Exactly! Do what you love, otherwise you won't do it.
    3733 days ago
  • KARBIE18
    Great insight! I agree with Lisa, that doing what you enjoy will help you stick with it. That's especially important if you haven't been consistent in the past.

    I've always wanted to try belly dancing, too! I've heard it's a blast! Enjoy!

    Keep on moving,
    3733 days ago
  • SHEILA1505
    Hi there - I can so relate to this - I cannot run but "friends" try to pressurise me saying my walking is a waste of time. Well, it's my time! But ... at last night's Zumba class, there was a huge puddle of sweat on the floor around my space and I didn't notice 60minutes flash by in giggles, hard work, stax of movement

    You do what brings you to life and brings you joy - that will keep you on track far better than doing something you feel you *ought* to be doing
    3733 days ago
  • JLITT62
    I never felt pressured to run by anyone & I still often don't enjoy it during, but I really enjoy how I feel after!

    I like a wide variety of cardio. My absolute fave is swimming. But I enjoy dancey workouts, kickboxing . . . whatever floats your boat!
    3733 days ago
    I hear you on the running.. And i agree.. Do what's right for you.. ONE of my fav activities is KICKBOXING...LOVE IT!! WHOOT.. but, like you i like variety.. I was actually biking last year BEFORE i started running... theni was bitten by the running bug... I had to switch my HM entry to the 5K run due to a leg injury.. I have been maintaining between 4-6 miles... I find i like the shorter runs... because i can 1.) get it over and done with; 2.) i can work on getting faster.. I find i'm REALLY enjoyign the short 5K runs... there are so MANY fun runs at that level.. Not too many at the HM and/or MArathon level.. I"ve regoaled to get to HM level again this fall.. and try 1 race... WE'll see... Sometimes the long runs are SO MONOTONOUS... I'd rather have a short run and then go for a long bike ride and/or swim... I"d rather pull off( and i have) all 3 of those in one day... It's my kind of mental challenge.. YOu do what makes you happy.. and if you decide.. Hey doing just a 5K run is a Ok and you keep doing it for your "variety" repotoire.. then do it! Oh.. and i'm looking for someone to do the Red Dress Run in June with me.. It's gonna be FUN!!! :)
    3734 days ago
    Different strokes....or so they say. If everyone liked running the roads would be mighty crowded. I think belly dancing sounds like a lot more fun. PS I'm WALKING the bridge run.
    3734 days ago
  • FRECKS96
    You totally need to do what makes you happy. I have had a bunch of friends that did the C25K, did 1 race and then decided that it's not for them. That's how I feel about a lot of different cardio things. You just need to find what works for you. Good Luck!

    BTW-Kayaking is amazing! If you ever have a chance to go to the Adirondacks, stop on Old Forge at Mountain Man Outfitters, you can rent canoes and kayaks and spend the whole day paddling between lakes. I can't wait until Alexis is old enough to be able to do that.
    3734 days ago
    That's great from your soul searching-you gotta do what you love!!
    3734 days ago

    I'm also SUPER interested in trying kayaking. I always have been, but I'm not a great swimmer and it freaks me out a bit! LOL Is that something I can do here in Binghamton???
    3734 days ago
    Makes AEONS of sense to ME! Of course, I've traveled the same path...feeling the pressure from all the RUNNERS around and envious of their euphoria. But: I have my OWN euphoria out on the road with my bike. Like you, I CAN run, HAVE run, will ALSO do the 5K Bridge Run...but mostly just for the comraderie of joining in with others. I also enjoy working out at RiverWalk Athletic Center, kayaking and other things...just have never been able to pick up the running bug. At least, not YET...! :-)

    Perhaps you'll consider joining the Southern Tier Bicycle Club...? Lots of great rides coming up! http://www.southerntierbicycleclub.

    3734 days ago
    You do have to do what works for you and not everyone else. It might just be that what works for you is variety of activities. Keep mixing it up.
    3734 days ago
  • LISAW/3
    Good for you! It is more important to find what you enjoy, you'll be more likely to stick with it.
    3734 days ago
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