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Friday, April 15, 2011

Followed my meal plan for the third day in a row...yipeee ! emoticon

Furthermore I cycled for 45 minutes yesterday evening - and this morning again! By 6.30 in the morning I had already done my exercise for the day... feels really good! I do have a lot of resistance against going out, I discuss a lot with myself but finally made it and as soon as I am on the bike and away, it is just great. I want to have my bike computer on, I haven´t fully figured out how to attach all parts yet, but I think I will be even more motivated when I can read numbers - how many kilometres I have done.

Yesterday I talked about me eventual diagnose adhd with my brother - he went off in a tantrum about "stupid psychiatrist" and "idiotic health care" and the usual pattern in my family when we disagree or the conversation starts getting ugly is that we either end it quickly or change subject - then we don´t speak for a while. This time I tried to hang in there and present my perspective without being defensive or aggressive - just trying to tell him why I wanted to discuss the thing at all. I felt very uncomfortable and upset afterwards, I stood up for myself (I am the little sister....) and although we did not quarrel and the conversation ended in a friendly way it made me very uncomfortable to leave my usual pattern... change is painful. I tried to phone an OA-friend - following the "recipe" of the big book that says that if you get angry or scared you should a) do a prayer b) tell a friend and c) turn outwards and help somebody. I said the prayer but none of the contacts answered and then I gave a lot o positive feedback to the fishmonger (?) that comes once a week to our village store to sell fresh fish... had salmon fillet for dinner, great! Today it is herring time, cheap and nutritious...

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  • SILLYHP1953
    I really appreciate the honesty of your blogs, you have a way of cutting through and getting to the heart, and you do it in your second language!
    3465 days ago
  • CANNIE50
    I agree with Rainbow choc - I hold back a bit more with my family. I have learned from experience that they just don't necessarily need to know as much as I was always inclined to tell them. As I get older it has become a bit easier for me to discern who I should share what, with. Good for you on all your hard work and for recognizing, as I often tell my kids, "It isn't the being there that is hard, it is the getting there." Just getting on the bike and going despite the negative chatter shows you are just getting stronger. Sometimes the very hardest steps are the last ones on a long journey, they are the beginning steps, right? emoticon
    3477 days ago
  • INGMARIE
    emoticon Hello there. Hope your day is good.
    the reaction you got from your brother,is i think the same we all have gotten at one point or another, let him think about it and maybe then another talk?
    You did good. and this bike thing Way to Go emoticon
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    3482 days ago
  • TIGGERIFFIC123
    Congrats on sticking to your plan for 3 days!! Starting your day with exercise is awesome, no trouble fitting it in that way!!

    Having difficult conversations with family is tough. It sounds like you did a great job, sticking to the points and having the conversation that you needed to have. You might not have agreed BUT it was great that when you left it was on good terms. As strange as it was, it was an accomplishment...keep up the great work!

    Rhonda
    3484 days ago
  • KAMAPERRY
    emoticon Hang in there.
    3484 days ago
  • 1FEISTYMAMA
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    3484 days ago
  • KMIRANDA2000
    emoticon to day 4!
    3484 days ago
  • ONEKIDSMOM
    You're doing so well... I know how hard it is to leave our usual patterns! And look at you... three days abstinent. Every day is a victory. Now, just for today!

    You can do it, and you're worth it.
    3484 days ago
  • LIVING-BETTER
    Dear friend,
    i am with you totally.Changing is painful; but no pain no gain , here.he!he!
    Changing though painful is also unstoppable...
    Once we ve realized that here sth need to be changed things follow their way/ways and let the new air blow.
    You sound to me so Spring-y , i mean motivation, initiative and hope...
    Keep on trying to make the first difficult step and the rest will follow.
    Good luck to us!
    3484 days ago
  • RAINBOWCHOC
    Glad you are on track, family are not always the best people to "hear" important things, they have not always had the training, lol.
    Have a great w/e, maybe your friends will be around for a chat then
    best wishes, Sandra
    3484 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8570718
    First of all:
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    I soo recognise this reaction when you only want to speak about something important that´s on your mind.
    I´ve made the "mistake" a couple of times with my relatives, and it´s made me avoid it because I just don´t think it´s worth it. Maybe your brother needs to think about it for a while and then you can discuss it againg more calmly.
    Whatever happens it was very brave bringing it up.
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    3484 days ago
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