Thursday, March 31, 2011
This month is very hard on money, when all the bills are paid I have nothing left on my account. My freeze and cupboard contains a lot of food, it will last for at least fourteen days, the problem is gas for the car. I do have a creditcard to use, but I do know that using it might make the next month as poor if I can´t restrain myself to only use it for petrol and no impulse food buying...
I am expecting a sum of money before the eight of april - that will make my situation "Normal" again. But here is the silly thing - I sold a horse last summer and the girl phoned me around christmas and asked if I had any saddle that might fit. I said that she could try it out and left a saddle with her. Two weeks ago she phoned and said that she wanted to buy it and what was my prize? I said I did not know, had too do some research, and I have done that and come up with a prize that I think is appropriate. The silly thing is that I keep postponing to call her and tell her my prize - I am afraid that she will think that I am greedy... this is really silly and thinking about how much I need the money for the moment makes it even sillier... thinking about sending her an e-mail but that would be kind of weak...
Another friend has helped me to sell my four-wheel motorbike got a good prize (my friend was doing the haggling) and that moeny is going to help me to install a air-water pump this summer - I thought I would have to save anotuher year.
I have more things that need to be sold - a horse trailer is an exapmle... but that I will keep until the snow is gone and I have fetched my piano and a big cupboard from where I used to live before I bought this house. The early snow prevented me from getting them in november.
Money is hard for me - I have a hard time to claim my rights. During my years as selfemployed I have gotten profeesional in asking for fees and payments for my work but that was very hard to do when I started. I am not alone - I know that especially women are not so good in valuing their work.
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