So, for a week to ten days, I handled the food end of life by eating just about anything. I was going to say "anything I wanted," but the reality is that the food itself wasn't really what I wanted. I wanted comfort and security and easy. And we know how that went:
I got on the scale on Wednesday (I think), noted my weight gain--226.1. Reminded myself that it reflected the calories I'd eaten and the salt content. Shrugged. Reminded myself that my goal at the moment is to take appropriate care of me while not gaining weight. This is in the realm of maintain.
Yesterday, I was out of laundry, and pulled two pair of pants from the aspirational pile. One fit, but was not public ready. The other I wore all day, and eventually realized they were sitting too low much of the time.
And today I put batteries in the Wii, and got on that scale again. I looked. I got off. I recalibrated it. I got on again. I got off. I re-calibrated it, and then picked up my pants off the floor to compare that scenario. On and off. For about five minutes. Really.
I took a middling number out of all this. 218 and change. The first number was ridiculous, 216ish.
Big dramatic events going on this week, and it's not my relatives. And not something I'm okay talking about. I have not been eating enough--another stress response. And by not enough, I don't mean just insufficient energy intake, but not eating anything past breakfast on one day. That's not good.
I came to this page wondering how I felt about 218. I don't like that number. Even knowing that a stretch of restaurant food and sodium and hormonal fluctuations can do dramatic things to a body.
What was I saying? Oh yeah. I came to my Sparkpage wondering how I feel about 218, and then I saw that one of my first big goals was 220.
Going to remind myself:
* Track your food
* Don't stress about exercise, because of time, but don't malaise and malinger
* Take care of yourself, preserve your reserves
* Don't get hung up at maintaining at 218. See what happens when your behavior is more on keel.
And some questions for anyone reading this:
--Do you think I need to get a more conventional scale than the Wii?
--What would you do if you accidentally met a goal when there were huge stressors in your life? Do you consider it met, or just track it as a fluctuation?
--Ever decided to plateau or maintain as an interim goal and why?