Patience, Kindness, Compassion
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Since meditation kicked me in the butt last week I am making a real effort this week. I decided my mantra is "Patience, Kindness, Compassion" I say it over and over again in my head and it's actually having an effect... mostly on my marriage. I am in a good mood and I stay that way, regardless of my other half and SOMETIMES I even manage to lift him up with me (only for a few seconds, but still). He's been remarkably unhappy lately due to job stress and I had lost my compassion for him. It annoyed me. It still annoys me, but now I don't let it effect MY mood. I don't get discouraged. I keep being me. He can be whoever he wants, but he's not dragging me into his depression with him, and I let him deal with it however he wants.
I get discouraged often when my attempts at cheerfulness are shot down. Then I say my mantra and all is well. I just smile and go on. I am also treating the kids better, which is never a bad thing. I feel like one of those 50's housewives from movies I always admired for never letting the stress get to them. The ones whose children go on to greatness and then write entire movies about how amazing their Mom's were... like "The Prizewinner of Defiance, Ohio" one of my faves. I want to be like her. I want to be unfailingly optimistic and happy with my life because I have the love of my children. Haven't seen it? It's pretty stinkin' awesome... and based on a true story.