Wednesday, March 16, 2011
I know I am not alone. I know that other people are struggling with this. I have really been having a hard time this winter, and am hopeful that sunshine and warmer weather will help. But I also realize that this is likely to be a lasting battle. Both sides of my family have histories of depression and mental illness. But it is taboo to talk about with most of my relatives.
I grew up in one of those families where you put on your best clothes and make up and smile through every family gathering. Well, that's all well and good, but that's not the way I believe a family should function. Families should be able to be honest with one another and provide the support we all need. I am trying to teach my children differently. It is a very hard to break a tradition of silent suffering. Many of my relatives have had drug or alcohol problems. Their children grew up with drug and alcohol problems. Now THAT is a tradition I want to break. I want to start a new tradition of "come as who you are" gatherings, where you bring your emotional baggage and don't check it at the door. We can accept each other "as is" and support each other through any necessary changes. I think that is a tradition that I can feel good about.
Also, I have found that support from people who understand can come from outside the family. SparkPeople has been wonderful for that. Thank you for all of the support my SparkFriends have given me as I discover myself through this journey. Love to you all!