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Battling Depression

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

I know I am not alone. I know that other people are struggling with this. I have really been having a hard time this winter, and am hopeful that sunshine and warmer weather will help. But I also realize that this is likely to be a lasting battle. Both sides of my family have histories of depression and mental illness. But it is taboo to talk about with most of my relatives.

I grew up in one of those families where you put on your best clothes and make up and smile through every family gathering. Well, that's all well and good, but that's not the way I believe a family should function. Families should be able to be honest with one another and provide the support we all need. I am trying to teach my children differently. It is a very hard to break a tradition of silent suffering. Many of my relatives have had drug or alcohol problems. Their children grew up with drug and alcohol problems. Now THAT is a tradition I want to break. I want to start a new tradition of "come as who you are" gatherings, where you bring your emotional baggage and don't check it at the door. We can accept each other "as is" and support each other through any necessary changes. I think that is a tradition that I can feel good about.

Also, I have found that support from people who understand can come from outside the family. SparkPeople has been wonderful for that. Thank you for all of the support my SparkFriends have given me as I discover myself through this journey. Love to you all!

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  • SKINNYPOWELL1
    Wouldn't it be great if everyone was honest and could just be themselves? Honesty is always best and family should love you no matter what. Hope you are seeking help for your depression, it can be very painful, but it is also very treatable, I've been there, don't be afraid to seek professional help. Best wishes on your journey. SP friends are the greatest. emoticon
    3431 days ago
  • LILYBETHSMOM
    I can really relate to where you are coming from. All I can say is that you have it absolutely correct in making a different environment for your children.. Good for you for seeing what needs to change. Just remember ;when you are feeling down; all the wonderful blessings you have to live for. AND this life is meant to be joyful. Easier said than done, but we are children of the Most High. You are a precious child of God. You are made in His image. You are His masterpiece. But, don't be afraid to seek your doctor's advice if you feel things are getting out of your control.

    Blessings & Healthy Eating!
    3431 days ago
  • SHEROTT1
    You are right!! Everyone (especially family) should just love you no matter what. Putting on a fake smile is emotionally draining!! And talking about your feelings always makes things better than holding them in! Good luck with all you do!! You are amazing!!
    3431 days ago
  • PANSYLADY2
    I totally understand what you're saying! My mother's family were all pretty much clinically depressed and several, including my mother, took their own lives. I had that same depression, but through prayer, GOD delivered me from that horrible feeling. I do, however, take a low dose antidepressant to combat SAD. It works and I feel so much better.
    Father, I pray for Leslie and as you heal and deliver her from this depression. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
    3431 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3008106
    emoticon I know exactly how you feel. I have only made significant progress with moving beyond my depression in the last 6-9months. The 3 years immediately prior to that were horrible. Hang in there!! SP is a great resource emoticon
    3431 days ago
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