being kinder to myself than I have ever been before
Monday, March 14, 2011
so this weekend was a lot of ups and downs. friday was hard because I did give into bingeing when I lied to a friend and felt guilty afterwards. Saturday was better because I both exercised and stayed within my calorie limit for the day. I also cooked a great meal for my best friend and I from the spark recipes. (I recommend to everyone to try out the ginger beef recipe..it is delicious...also add in some more vegetables and it gets even better). today was not so great as I was really lazy and instead of staying on my food plan I grazed on snacks all day and didnt get a proper meal until dinner. I also watched a movie tonight and snacked more while watching it. At the same time I am proud of myself for eating a healthy dinner when usually I would have eaten an unhealthy one since I had such an unhealthy day my old mentality would have been well I've messed up the day already I might as well keep going. Now though I'm realizing every meal counts so even if I screw up all day and dont eat right its still better to eat one healthy meal than none. I am of course frustrated with myself for having such an unsuccessful day but I'm also optimistic because in the past I would beat myself up for this and feel like a failure and think I will never eat healthy again but now I'm seeing it for what it was and thats a bad day. but just one day never hurt anyone and all i can do is realize I can do better and start over tomorrow eating healthy.