The fat didn't get here on it's own...
Friday, February 18, 2011
so it's not going to leave all on it's own either! Ha ha. I really believe (and sincerely hope) that I am actually getting *it* this time. I've been doing my best to form new eating habits, to find new, healthy foods that I enjoy. I've been doing my best to avoid fast food, and on the occasions I have something, I do it based on calories/fat instead of my cravings. I'm the Queen of excuses... "I work 12 hours a day, and have to commute, and I need to sleep and blah blah blah, I don't have time to exercise"... what a bunch of bologna. There are people doing amazing on their weight loss journeys, who have FAR MORE to do and FAR MORE responsibilities than I do.
On the one MTV show "I Used To Be Fat" the guy tells the trainer: "I don't have time..." the trainer says "but you have time to play video games", and he goes "You're right, I have the time, I don't have the DESIRE." It was so spot on. I didn't have the desire, I wanted to lose weight of course, but I didn't have the desire to keep me going and doing what I need to do. This weight didn't magically appear... it came from me eating fast food and not exercising over and over again everyday. So it is going to take me eating right and exercising over and over again to get it off. I have been so tired this week, but have stuck to walking my 2 miles when I get home... other people are doing this... and hopefully I will be on my way to joining them. :D
I do think I need to put the scale away, because it really messes with my mind. When the weight doesn't go down, I think "Why do I bother?" But I need to just trust that I am doing things right this time, and trust that in time the weight will start coming off. I'm going to try my best to put the scale in the closet and not weigh til the end of the month (which I know isn't THAT far away... but that would be a HUGE thing for me LOL).