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Confession, with a side of guilt.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Like many people, I am an emotional eater. I really do love food, but if left to my own devices when upset/stressed/bored/whatever, I will eat. And eat. And then eat some more. Regardless of any hunger that I may or may not actually be feeling. Not only will I eat, but I will WANT to eat crap. I crave it. Sweet, salty, it really doesn't matter.

The big difference right now? The guilt. I mean, I always would feel guilty after binging. However, now I feel guilty in advance. I feel the urge to eat, but can usually talk myself out of it with the knowledge that it isn't the right (or healthy) thing to do. I don't WANT to screw up the work I've done over the last 18 months. I don't want to regress and become the 'before' again. I just want to be.

Right now is a pretty stressful time at work. Our annual trade show is two weeks away, and everyone is feeling the crunch. Things are much worse this year than before as we are 6 staff people short - thanks to layoffs in 2010. We are all lucky to have survived, but now that makes 6 less people to do the same (well, actually more) work. For some companies this might not make that big of a difference, but there are only 23 (?) employees in my company now. That change is HUGE. Words really cannot express how frustrating it is to feel so far behind, and all I want to do is eat. Candy. Fries. Unhealthy lunches. Whatever, it doesn't matter, I just want it. I need it, crave it, feel like I will die without it.

And here comes the guilt again...
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  • CHANGINGMORGAN
    I totally feel you, way too well. And I haven't been too good about denying myself - a problem to say the least. All I can say without sounding like a total hypocrite is do your best, try to squeeze in your workouts, and power through. Hugs!
    3325 days ago
  • PURPLEVALENTINE
    I am totally with ya the emotional eating. Hope you get through your trade show!
    3325 days ago
  • FUNFROG79
    Oh, man, I feel the same way! Hang in there! We are here for you!
    3333 days ago
  • SCMAMAJONES
    Hang in there -- the good thing is, once the trade show is over, it's over. Pack healthy snacks and a healthy lunch, and if you can, get up and stretch, walk around. Take care of yourself!
    3333 days ago
  • SKINNYPOWELL1
    Good job in talking yourself out of emotional eating. Sounds like stress is a major factor at work, pack you a lunch, yes, I know that's old and boring, but it works. pack a few snacks too, then when you feel like eating, you only have healthy stuff within reach. I know you can overcome this, like you said, why would you want to undo what you've worked so hard for. No more guilt or emotional eating, pack those lunches and snacks and be GUILT FREE.
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    3333 days ago
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