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I will not let a pants size get the best of me!

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

Today I realized that I am down to 3 pairs of work pants that fit. And of those 3, the hem fell out of one pair and I broke the zipper today on another pair. Yikes! And since I am not likely to lose the 10lbs I would need to in order fit into some of my smaller pants overnight, I decided it was probably time to get some new pants tonight.

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After realizing that size 16's were no longer going to fit, I am not sure if I felt more motivated or defeated... but I'm leading more towards defeated. I am .8lbs from being right back where I started. Starting over again.

Sometimes I feel so far away from my goals. I feel like I'm never going to get there. Last week I caught myself thinking that maybe I should just learn to accept myself at this size and make the best of it. For a second, I wondered if I should just give up. I feel ashamed that I have tried so many things and ended up right back where I started.

I am ashamed to even be writing this blog... another ode to my struggles and failures.

3 months and 32lbs ago I felt like maybe I could get there. Now I'm not so sure.

But, the point is, I am going to keep trying. Even if I fail 100 more times, maybe that 101 time I will be successful. I will not be a quitter and I will not give up on myself.
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  • IRISHLASS117
    Don't quit! Showing up each day is the hardest part so take it a half day at a time and you'll find your stride.
    3820 days ago
  • APIRLRAIN888
    NO NO NO!!! I would go to marshall b.c cheap nice stuff!
    grab one pants that fits you like a glove!
    and grab a smaller size for later!!!
    that you know you have a measuring tool!!!!
    3821 days ago
  • SLMTRACE
    I swear I could totally write this blog!!! Im here for you and know you can do it!!

    3821 days ago
  • WRITERMOM73
    I agree with Ashleykat. Admitting that you're struggling is proof that you're ready for a change. You can do it!
    3821 days ago
  • FLAME64
    Chrystal,
    I'm right there with you . But we can do it and we will do it-for ourselves and our future. I am at size 20 and was at size 18 in Nov. I'm here for you ! emoticon
    3821 days ago
  • ASHLEYKAT
    Admitting you're struggling is not something weak or to be ashamed of. You can do it! Just keep at it! You knew what it took to lose those pounds before, along with some important NEW lessons and you will be even BETTER at it this time.
    3821 days ago
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