Okay, I don't suck. And I know I don't suck, and I'm not REALLY beating myself up.
Note to self - go to the gym on Wednesdays after work. I don't CARE if you've barely had enough sleep in 3 (or 4) days - if you DON'T, you will throw off your entire training schedule. *sighs*
Suffice it to say, I didn't go to the gym (as predicted) on Wednesday but opted for sleep. So when I DID get to the gym on Thursday, E25K kicked MY butt this time around. Started strong with 2 1/2 minutes of running...and thought I was going to die. Tried it again, and was SURE I was going to die. Cut back to 2 minutes after that, and just couldn't do the last run at the 30 minute mark...I kept my speed up walking until I hit my 5K goal, and then started my cool down. But I was disappointed in myself - I felt SO ready for more on Sunday, but 3 days off really set me back. SO I tried again the next day - just keeping to the 2 minute runs. And again, just couldn't do the last one. I started it, but was back to a walk after 60 seconds. And yesterday? Yesterday I totally screwed myself up by not getting up until noon, even though I knew I had a birthday party and game day scheduled with the RHPO3+1 and the Red-Headed Dad. And waking up at noon with a slight headache made the idea of running not so appealing. SO, I bailed.
And now I'm at work, so that's it for any gym time until Wednesday again.
Of course, considering we're getting up early on Tuesday evening to see our favorite band at a CD release party at my favorite book store before I go to work...I was pretty convinced Wednesday was going to be a wash for the gym again, UNTIL I came in to work tonight and found a meeting request for a meeting that's later than I normally stay up on Tuesdays - and it's a meeting I REALLY need to be involved in, so I'm going to see if I can use that as leverage to get Tuesday night off - woot! So there's hope!
Meanwhile, I've readjusted the plan, and am going to repeat the 2/3 week AGAIN, since I barely was able to even do that this week. Maybe my body is doing the same thing with *this* that it does (and is apparently doing again btw) on weightloss - progress for a few weeks, and then stick where it's at for a while until I convince it that I mean business. At which point it begrudgingly lets go of a few pounds and does it all over again. It would make sense I guess (since that's the pattern I've noticed in weightloss, it wouldn't surprise me to see it manifest elsewhere). Annoying, but you gotta work with what you've got, right?
I WILL DO THIS!
Determined Sag is determined.
I've still got 6 weeks before the AHA Heart 5K (and *still* no idea if I'll get off work early enough to make it in time for the run). My goal is to be ready, whether I run it or not. I'm thinking I should pick a 5K in April to shoot for, just in case. So Determined Sag is off to poke around active.com to see what's coming up. *nods*