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Eight weeks and counting...

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

It is eight weeks until my back surgery (7 weeks and 6 days)...and, I am beginning to feel the apprehension and anxiety of it all.

I have peace about the surgery in general (a relief from the constant back pain and misery); I have peace about the finances, mostly (health insurance, savings and tax refund will cover pretty much everything); I have peace about my "aftercare", generally (my dad said he was going to come for a time--don't know how long, my church family said they would set up a service schedule to meet all my needs!! what a blessing they are!!); and, I have peace about being out of work for 6-weeks--NOT!!

I don't know what it is about me--but, I cannot imagine being off work for 6 weeks! This is really bothering me a lot. I was unemployed for the first three months after my roommate and I moved here to Houston. I got a little lazy, I got a little crazy, and, finally, I returned to my right mind and got a job (that I still have today--18+ years later!!). I guess I have somehow defined myself as my job--these folks are my extended family...even the clients are precious to me.

But, I know that this is probably God's way of "shaking me up" to remind me that I am not just my job!! That I can allow others to take care of me for a change (I am usually the one "taking care of" others). I am also very concerned about getting to weight goal...

I lost 2 pounds last week--I am pleased...but, hoped for more. I calculated a loss of 2 pounds a week for the next 7 weeks and I will be around 145lbs...only 5 pounds from goal. That is doable--if I follow my plan (eating, workouts)!! I also want to do another Daniel Fast. I am still thinking of when...but, I think this will certainly help me focus spiritually, mentally and physically!!

So, I continue my journey...and, countdown to a HUGE pit stop on that journey...and, then recover from there!!

blessings and peace, All.
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    I, too, know how hard it can be to step back and allow others to take care of you or help, when YOU are usually the caretaker. We should open our hearts to it, for there are others who enjoy helping, as well.

    I pray your surgery goes well and that you have a speedy recovery.
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    Comment edited on: 1/28/2011 7:04:59 PM
    What is it about other bloggers today, you're echoing things I've had to work through, too. Must be all the kindred spirits on the f-list!

    Anyhoo... I know the feeling of defining oneself as the job. AND I had a wake-up shake-up a year and a half ago doing much the same thing: needing surgery. What I discovered was that 1) My team could handle it just fine... they are well trained, competent people, and 2) they missed me "just enough" to make me feel valued when I got back.

    You'll do great... plan, and the anxiety reduces. Trust, and even more so. Praying for your peace & learning!

    - Barb emoticon emoticon
    3759 days ago
    Praying for your back and your mind! God will carry you through this. Your faith has always been a nice touch point for me on here. You have a way of sharing your faith that isn't preachy, and that can be a rare thing. :)

    As far as the 6 weeks go, I totally feel you! The 4 weeks I had off for Christmas made me almost crazy! And I was busy!
    3759 days ago
  • KKP4673
    I will continue to pray for you! I pray God will lead you to the right books of encouragement that you might want to immerse yourself in while you are out from work! I bet the 6 weeks will fly by!!


    3759 days ago
  • -POOKIE-
    I too am not looking forward to my recovery time and being 'helpless'. I wish I had a date though like you!
    3759 days ago
    God is in control. Blessing and peace for your surgery.
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    God will not lead you where His grace cannot keep you.

    It would be nice if we could look over the hill and see the future. all we can do is trust and somedays that just sucks
    3759 days ago
  • JUDIL62
    Congrats on the loss, and good luck with your surgery!
    3759 days ago
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