up to day 20
Thursday, January 20, 2011
So, it is day 20 and I have not given up. Many times Have felt like caving into temptation but nope I have stayed strong.
Funniest thing is though this week, I have been having really strange dreams that are about Junk food, nice chocolate cakes and deserts. Like the start of Willy Wonker and the chocolate factory , how you see all that nice yummy chocolate. Just strange dreams, maybe is apart of detoxing symptoms. Who knows, I really don't feel Like I have had any symptoms. Probably just been a bit moody. I have felt a little bloated from time to time and I have felt like giving up because, I really can't see myself, holding on for much longer. I have avoided eating so many yummy and delicious things. I been telling myself, That one little bite won't hurt you. Go on treat yourself to a little chocolate bar, it is only one, you have your treat now and that is all you can have, it is still one day of the month. My rule is every last day of the month. I know what will happen, I will cave in, if I allowed myself, to choose one day of the month, instead of having a date already picked out. I am able to walk a little bit longer, reaching around an hour but not every day. I am only suppose to be doing 30 mins but i like walking once i get into it but doctors saying that is a no no, to doing to much. I start uni next month, so won't get time to do much walking, least I can keep eating right and won't be faced with much temptation?
I am drinking more water, seeing we are in hot weather, better to have at least 3 bottles of water a day. I guess, I need to have more, but I guess three bottles is better then drinking soft drinks. Not sure if I have lost anything, Have not bothered to weigh myself. I figure i am not going to do that every few weeks or something, I guess I might end up just being disappointed with what the scales tell me.
I am having great family support, although at the same time they are oh do you want to have some of this with me, I am like no remember I am not eating that. I try to get away with it, like yeah o.k and then they are like oh no I remember ur doing that diet thing. So sorry you not allowed to have any. LOL they won't let me cave in either , as much as I think they would like me to join in with what they are eating, so they have someone to share it with.
I never thought I would get this far, I thought I would have really caved in by now. I am getting so temped to just eat the way I used to, but at the same time, I am enjoying eating healthy. I am finding places Like Mcdonalds I can eat at. One of their wraps basicly just have lettuce a bit of cheese and some dressing with grilled chicken. So I can still eat that. I don't really fully have to miss out on Mcdonalds. They have bacon in the wrap but I just give it to my hubby, whatever I don't want to eat. Or I order it without it. Found something healthy and yummy that I can have. I enjoy it too, not many people do.
I have to realise That I won't see results over night, but as the saying goes , it will happen. I feel like that I am eating all this healthy food and in the end, it is not going to do any good. I am still going to look like this at the end of the year, I won't lose anything, it is going to take years. I know, that is just a lie. I will do it, I will get there. Keep going not give up and I will see my dream result.