This last couple of days have been a swing in attitude. I still was very tired yesterday (Sunday) and still had a headache and sore shoulders & neck. But I had set a date with my oldest daughter to go to JoAnn's in the afternoon to look at home decor fabrics on sale. My Christmas gift to her was to make curtains for her living room. Well, after looking for an hour, she picked what she wanted except that the color she wanted was out of stock. As we were figuring out how much she needed and how much it was going to cost, she said it was too expensive. We decided to go over to WalMart and she found curtains she liked there for a third of the cost! Made it easier on me
On the way home I stopped at Sam's Club, Sprouts, then King Soopers. I was tired when I got home. As I was putting groceries away, I noticed my daughter just leaning against the counter like she was waiting for something. Then, it HIT me ... she got a nose ring. I couldn't say anything, I was too upset. She left.
Well, needless to say, that really put me into a bad mood. I began thinking of all my failures and things spiraled downward from there. I went to bed early (8:45) and dreamed of failures all night. This morning I began talking to myself about how I was a big FAT failure, that I had worked for 21 years trying to lose weight and have gotten nowhere.
Well, I had an appointment at 9:00 at Balance Fitness for a fitness assessment with a personal trainer. I went ahead and went, figuring I had nothing to lose -- it was free.
She was very nice. She did all sorts of measurements -- even used the fat caliber thing and measured different areas of my body's fat. Then she put me through different exercises to measure my strength and endurance.
As we were talking, she asked me want do I want? I didn't really hesitate - I do WANT to lose this weight and become fit and healthy. She wanted to know if I wanted a personal trainer to help. She gave me her rates and I ended up setting another appointment with her for this Saturday. I said I needed to talk to me husband before setting any more. But at that point I think I had already decided to do at least 4 sessions with her. I liked her and besides she is on SparkPeople!
She gave me a cardio routine to work on 4 times this week. I did the first one after our meeting. I was sweating and puffing by the time I was done. I haven't really sweated as much with my workouts. lol.
That workout really helped my attitude. Because as I did it I listened to Dennis Jernigan. God used his songs to show me that God cared for me and would help me through this weight loss process.
Then when I got home I got on to SP. Three things really spoke to me...
1) The devotion thread on Christians With 100 Pounds to Lose
"God honestly does know what we suffer through when we try to lose weight. He sympathizes with us in all our suffering, but He can also see the prize that awaits us."
2)A blog I read "suggested that an apology to Fat girl would help me move forward. I liked it. An apology. Begin Healing. Begin accepting that, while I canï¿½t CHANGE the past, I CAN take responsibility for it and resolve to do better. "
3) A SP friends status..."I can either be loyal to honoring the Lord, my husband, and my body, or be loyal to my cravings, desires & excuses for not exercising."
God knew what I needed and after spending time reading His word and prayer, I am ready to push on.
Oh, by the way, I did talk with husband and he full supports me working with a personal trainer. God is good,all the time, all the time God is good!
Sun 1/17 & Mon 1/18
1) Blog daily Sun=NO; Sat=
2) Lose 5 lbs ...
3)Exercise daily for at least 20 min. ---- rest day
4) workout at least 3x's a week at gym -- Sun=NO,
5) Strength Training 3x's a week -- Sun=NO ,
6) Drink a min of 8 glasses of water ea day.
7) Follow a low-carb diet -- .