well, heres the thing..

ok, so things have been pretty good. ive been determined on losing weight slowly and im about 165lbs now. its been good, i still eat whatever, i just kinda remind myself when i start to indulge to slow down; and its been working... but i kinda got to thinking today, i went from 200lbs a year ago to 165lbs to the day and im still not at all happy with myself. i mean, its noticable, ive been running into alot of people lately that are just like "wow, youve lost weight!" and it makes me feel pretty good most of the time. i just dont know if 15 more lbs is gonna be enough. i guess ill see when i get there. seems like since me and my fiance split up its been quite a bit easier to lose weight. maybe all we ever did was eat. (lol) and i guess my guy now has given ma some little push to improve myself. he's, lets just say, the sexy dark and mysterious type. pretty much the embodiment of the perfect guy for me (im lameeee) i like him alot though and he really could have any girl he wanted, so now more than ever i must keep focused! (: