Day Sixteen: Progress Report
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Hello SP People:
I have not been online much lately. I am trying to stay off the computer a little more than usual. I am hoping to live a little more life. I am still waiting for the letter of acceptance or rejection from the YMCA. I continue to hope that they will accept me for financial aid for a membership to the Y. I need the structure and (forgive me) in person support.
I love all my friends that I have gotten to know on SP and I am grateful for the support I receive from each and every one of you as well. I have made personal changes that for the last two weeks I have been working on consistancy and I am enjoying the changes. I know I made the right choices when it came to increasing my personal time with God. I do my devotions regularly (at least for the last two weeks) and I have been reading the Bible regularly and I have been praying but I feel that I need to increase my prayer time.
These activities are of great importance to my weight loss goals as well. They are important because of my lack of self-esteem and my time with God has helped me to see that I am loved and I am a creation of God's and he doesn't make junk. This time is important to me for my own personal "Spiritual" health and "Emotional" health.
Since, my eating is often triggered by stress and emotional eating this part of my health is very truly completely connected to my body, mind, and soul. If I can't get out of bed and motivate myself to move because I am depressed I am certainly not going to get exercise and lose weight. I have to gain control over my heart, thoughts, attitudes, and my ability to practice delayed gratification.
We live in a very instant society. We don't have to wait for much of anything anymore. This is not good for us as the human race. We need to learn vertues like patience and kindness and servitude (service to others). We are all in such a big hurry or so wrapped up in our own lives and our own ambitions and our own wants, needs, and desires that we often can't see beyond our own bubble.
I don't want to be that person. I want to stop focusing so hard on my own life and my own problems that I can't see the suffering of others or that I don't have time to help others. I want to stop feeling trapped and sorry for myself because all I see is my own problems. I have NO problems when you put my life next to the people in Haiti that are still homeless and trying not to get Cholera and the CDC is now testing for Typhoid. After losing loved ones and their homes and now there is crime all over the place and disease is starting to spread. I live in a palace in a wonderfully blessed Kingdom compared to what they deal with on a daily basis and I need to focus on the blessings in my life and give back to people who are worse off than I am.
My weight has not gone down at all. As a matter of fact I am up a pound from where I started on January 1st but I am not going to let that stop me. I am working on my heart, soul, attitudes and I drink my smoothie in the morning (still), I eat my salad for lunch (always), and I eat a regular meal for supper with my husband. I do 30 minutes on the treadmill and I will continue to do these things and one day I am going to step on the scale and it will be less of a number than it was on January first and I will do a happy dance.
For right now I am just pressing on. Thank you for all your support. Please don't give up on me.