I decided to quit smoking on Jan 11th at 11:30pm i already had the patch and some gum and such ready because my official quit date was going to be Sunday Jan 16th, but after discussing it with my b/f who is also quitting smoking with me; we decided to just not wait and do it now. I am going to update this blog as often as i can with my progress the good, the bad and the ugly lol
I have been a smoker for the last 13 years of my life and i have tried to quit many times, the longest i was smoke free for was 2 yrs. I am just tired of being unhealthy, spending so much on smokes, and being a bad influence to my children, how am i supposed to sit there and say " Don't smoke it is bad for you" while i do it everyday... It made no sense to me. I am ready to give this bad habit up and i know i can i just need support and encouragement from my friends, family and you!
Day 1 :
Today has been a very strange and off day for me ever since i woke up, i will catch myself reaching for a smoke where they normally would be, or going to grab one or even looking forward to one and then i remember i quit lol i'm not sure how to describe that feeling but it is strange. I have been chewing sugar free gum when i get a really bad craving and i always have ice water around to sip (which also helps my water consumption for my weight loss) and i will hold a pen between my fingers sometimes too.
I have just tried to change up my normal daily routine just because doing what i normally do makes me want to smoke even more. I have also found that working out is actually more enjoyable because it is a distraction for me and i can concentrate on that and my goal to lose weight.
All and all though it has been a pretty good day, and i look forward to another smoke free day tomorrow, oh and my kids are very proud of me so that is a huge plus and means allot to me :)
My daughter Melody at christmas age 5 (My monkey and inspiration)
My son Michael at christmas ( My baby boy and also my inspiration)
Well today was a lot harder than i expected it to be, my b/f had to work at night so he had to sleep most of the day and the kids were at school i was so bored.... Only thinking about smoking ugh i tried cleaning i did my work out, took the dog for a walk; i just couldn't get it out of my mind and it was driving me insane!
I finally cracked around 3pm and cried and cried lol my b/f was trying to make me feel better and i told him i couldn't do it i just can't quit it is too hard.
I did what i normally do when things get too hard in life and i just want to give up, i talked myself into believing that was the only way... I broke down and had a smoke :( I was so angry at myself for being such a failure and not sticking with it, and as i had the cigarette i was still trying to make excuses for why i should. After i was done i felt so sick, my head was spinning and it tasted horrible... So i waited about 30 mains and i put a new patch on and told myself to suck it up and that i am not going to give up no matter how hard or challenging it may get.
I got through the rest of the night no problem and today is a new day and day 3 :D I am so happy i didn't give up on myself and my children, and i am going to stick with it!