feeling moody , hand me the chocolate !
Thursday, January 06, 2011
I have been finding it hard, to do the 28 day challenge, I am not really used of exercising. I have walked twice this week . the weather hasn't been the best, so decided that when the weather is horrible. I can do cardio exercise for 10-30 mins.
I have been kinda moody today to the point I would love to have some junk food but not going too caving in.
That might be why I am moody, cos I have had no junk food and usually have it a few times a week. I am really wondering how long I can stick at this for. Nothing I have tried in the past has worked, so why will this.
I got to re-train my brain to think a little more positive. I have come this far and I will keep going. I will not give up or give in. I think I am an emotional eater, right now I would be eating chocolate to help fix my mood up. I have already had a bowl of cereal which did not seem to help my mood.
For some reason. I feel like I am in a battle , this seems to be a bit of a struggle. I feel like I am being ripped into two. One part of me wants to keep on this road and another part of me wants to just forget this road, and go back to the old road. I The other road seems so much more easier. I am so glad that I am not a smoker or someone who uses substances If I had to quit I would not even last a second. I am so damn wide awake, it is 5am and have not slept since 12pm the previous day. Sick of not sleeping I bet that probably does not help my mood either. I have even done video works outs, thinking that help me get tired..still no luck at getting tired. I have 24 days to go before I get to treat myself to a little bit of junk food, weather it is a 99% fat free snack, I am not even touching them until I am at day 24, because I do not stop at one. I am hoping I will not cave in, I feel like I can the next time I go to the shops. that must be pretty bad, to think that I'll just go to the fridge right now and help myself to the cooking chocolate. Although I think cooking chocolate kinda taste gross. We don't have much junk food in the house but we do have things like sugar, I could have a teaspoon of it or honey. I think i should be right, lasted this long so far, I don't think i would really break this , I would kick myself if I do. Just the though it there, to do. Feeling tempted but I am sure it will pass.