up to day six so far
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
It has been six days since I started this new way of life. I have tried many diets before but after a day or two have quit. I am having great support from my husband and parents who we live with. Few years ago I joined sparks people, just never stuck with the site. I would not even have any idea what e-mail address I used to sign up or what password, I even forgot about this site but somehow found it again through google search. I am back, I hope to stay and Hope to not give up on this new life style.
Normally I do not put my pictures up on websites, I thought I might as well. I want to have encouragement, be encouragement to others who are struggling with the same thing as I am
.I want to see the changes from now til about a year away. I have taken taken pictures before but ended up deleting it, rip it up, I have looked at my picture, thought it is going to be hard, it is going to take ages, it will never happen. I end up giving up, I do not want to give up this time. I want to keep going. Thought having my picture up just might help me in some way to not give up.
My hubby keeps telling me that I am not fat, I appreciate him saying that, he is just not in my skin and does not feel how i feel. I do not feel comfortable in the cloths I ware, I want to have confidence in what I ware and not feel that what I ware is tight , I would like cloths to fit me properly, enjoy what I ware. I do not feel there is much around for me to ware. I stick to pants and a top I would like to be able to dress myself up, feel great about it, feel great about myself. That is not something I feel at the moment.
New years eve, I had mini pavlovas. My dad he loves cooking and most of what he enjoys cooking is un healthy so I told him of my goal for 2011 so he made them for me to have before new year, which was nice. I seem to be also encouraging him to cook healthy foods.He joins in with eating healthy too, which is good for him as 4 years ago, he had a stroke. I want to stick to this it is not only helping me but also helping my dad. I have Vsd, and If I eat healthy and exercise I am going to be helping my body to live a healthy life as well.
Food shopping This week I have found hard to do. Avoiding foods that I would normally eat, just help myself too without thinking about it. I know I will get better at avoiding them and being strong when people tell me to eat hot chips with them. I felt a bit of pressure today while hubby and dad where eating hot chips. I did not cave in , in having them. My hubby thinks that I am not eating healthy at all, I am. Who really needs to eat junk food anyway, is what my opinion has been lately. All that comes with doing that, can be health problems after health problems. There is consequences for what we eat.
eg: last year I ended up at the dentist getting a tooth pulled out. I have go back to have a two hour dentist work. I am putting that off as long as possible I hate going to them places. You Anyway, You get told at the dentist to look after your teeth, what to eat and what not to eat, same as doctors. Yet friends/ family will tell u come on, have some more one more slice of cake won't hurt you. I know sometimes, that I will not stop at just a handful of something, or a small portion of something so yes, when I do that type of eating, it can hurt me. I want to be more wise with food, with my health. So doing six days so far, has to be pretty good and If I can do one week, I am sure I can keep going with great support from friends, family and people experiencing he same thing, so is why I have joined sparks again.
Well, not sure if I am even making sense. It is 2:26am in the morning. I need to sleep but my sleeping pattern is out of whack. I hope that will change, once I sart walking more and sticking to a healthy diet. Not sure if that would make your sleeping patterns change or not.