So, yes, I left work early yesterday in order to rush to the doctor so they could tell me just what was going on with my ear.
* Pressure and pain in the ear
* Dizziness (LIKE CRAZY!)
* Constant Ringing
* Build of pressure, slight release, build of pressure again, over and over
* Lack of sleep and then inability to control when I'd fall asleep
I was all over the dang place! And I didn't like not having control of my body! Now before you get on me about not getting to the doctor sooner, I must tell you that, if I could have, I definitely would have! I experienced my first symptoms on NYE at about 10pm and they didn't let up all weekend. I tried every OTC I could think of, I tried washing my ear with warm water in the shower, I took pain meds and tried to sleep. Still - the ringing, the constant pain, etc. Monday was the soonest the doctor was in, and Monday I went.
Yep, you guessed it...monster, killer ear infection. I'm on antibiotics and numbing ear drops to help me sleep at night (instead of falling asleep in the middle of the day because I couldn't sleep the night before). I don't know that I've ever had an ear infection before, but I feel so bad for every person who ever has! It's torture! That ringing is killing me! I CANNOT WAIT until that stops! And the pain too! And the dizziness! UGH!
And what did I do after the doctor's office? I thought about laying down and resting. I seriously considered it. But I really wanted to get to the gym.
Now, before you jump on me about rushing things, let me explain my thinking.
1) I MUST swipe my card 2 times every week at the gym to remain a member of my insurance company's weight management program.
2) This is the FIRST month I'll be able to pay the discounted 14 bucks (instead of the 38 charged by the gym regularly, or the 45 I've been paying the past 3 months to start the program).
3) I have limited times available to swipe said card -- mainly, Monday and Wednesday are the only possible days for me. Tonight I have a test to take after work. Thursday I have my second job. And Friday morning I'm on my way to Vegas for a week.
4) If I rested, there was a distinct possibility that I would NOT be able to motivate myself to get back up later and go down to the gym. Time I had, energy was dwindling. I had to do it NOW, or not at all.
5) I only promised myself an hour at the gym, and it could be the slowest, most easy-going hour in the world if I wanted it to be.
6) Even if I didn't complete my 60 minutes, I still needed to swipe that card.
So, dizzy still, I went to the gym. I had noticed that when I was focused on something specific, my dizziness was manageable, even controllable to some extent. Long story short, I overcame the excuses, talked myself back into the gym, completed more than my 60 minute goal, and felt much happier afterward.
Remember yesterday I wanted to eat from the gym buffet? Well, I did!
I will not stop unless I feel the need to vomit.
No vomiting, I didn't feel sick to my stomach at all.
I will not stop unless I get feeling so faint that I fear I will actually pass out.
I did actually have to sit down twice and just stop and settle myself. Getting up from some floor work and bending back up from taking the ankle strap from the cable machine off both caused dizzy spells. I centered myself, took the time I needed, and then I moved on.
I will try to run, but will stop if my hip tells me it's too early to return.
My hip told me before I even got on a treadmill. The gym was crowded and I was going to have to wait for one anyhow, which probably saved me some further hurt. I could feel my hip sending me signals to give it a couple more days.
If the running isn't possible, I will walk as much as I can unless it hurts.
I did some walking around the gym as part of some circuit training mixed in with my ST routine upstairs. I felt good to move without causing any undue pressure on my joints.
If I feel the need to move faster, I will move my butt to the elliptical and "fake run" (that's what I call it) until my heart is content once again.
But walking wasn't going to do it for me. I wanted a little more of a challenge if I felt my body could take it. I hopped on the elliptical, kept my heart around 120-150 (avg 139) and just kept plugging away. Every minute or two I'd ask my body how it felt, and it felt just fine, good even! So I kept going. 30 minutes of cross training, with 2 speed intervals built in, and 5 minutes of cool down.
I will try at least one plank tonight.
I'm actually impressed that I haven't "lost" my ability to do this. I pulled out a 40 second plank, which is just 5 seconds under what I had worked my way up to. I probably could've done the other 5 seconds, but the longer I'm up, the more my body quakes, and the more I tense up trying to maintain my form, which causes funny things to happen in my head sometimes. I didn't want to push it with the dizziness issue, so I just slowly came down at 40 seconds (which is much different from the collapse I usually end with! *lol*).
I will try at least 10 REGULAR push-ups.
I honestly did NOT think I could complete this one, especially after the 40 second plank. But I told myself to just try. JUST TRY. And I tried. And they were very sorry pushups that didn't go down very far at all, but there were 10 of them, on toes, not knees. And, boy, was I proud!!
I will do the crunches that don't hurt my hip and see how many I can do without getting dizzy.
40. That's it. 40. Crunches are hard to do when you're feeling dizzy in the head. But I did what I could and then moved on, because I promised myself that's what I would do.
I will do the leg press machine because I love it with my whole heart (and all of my legs!).
I still love my new best friend. I always feel like some powerful body builder on that thing...hangin' with the big dudes, standing on my own and rocking it out. There's a power this machine gives me that goes beyond the sculpting of my calves it's been doing! (And that it has! This thing and the running thing are helping to give me the legs I have always wanted! I can see them start to come through and it makes me SO happy!)
I will do the back extension machine because it stretches the hip flexors.
Did it. Don't feel either way about it. About this time, though, I started to get bombarded by the influx of new gym members. Our gym is a small gym. Us regulars tend to have a flow down and rarely get in one another's way. But with all the new sign-ups this week, it's pure madness in there! I get off a machine to start to adjust the weight on it for another set and someone's already hopped on it behind me! EEK!
I will use the cable machine to work my hips and arm muscles.
I nearly forgot, and I had to work around a couple young teens who were trying to figure the thing out for the first time, but I'm SO glad I remembered! I love this little cable machine upstairs.
I will be sure to do my dumbbell lifts and feel that power in my arms again.
I almost forgot this as well, but, again, I'm glad I remembered! I felt so much better after! Stronger! More like myself again!
I will do both hip machines in the gym because my hips need the help.
Okay, well, kinda. I did one. Like I said, people kept jumping on machines right behind me like I was setting them up just for them. I got frustrated and left before I could do the other one...but the one I *did* do is the one I need the most, so there is that.
I will stay away from anything that might injure me or cause me to get dizzy or lose my balance.
I evaluated things in my head and tried to remember how it made me feel usually. I avoided Yoga because I knew that would cause severe dizziness. Usually it's perfect for injured players, but when the dizzy head thing is going on, it's totally wrong to hold your body in weird positions for too long. Hello, vertigo!
All in all, it was a pretty good night. I feel more like myself today. My appetite has returned, I guess, seeing as my stomach says I missed my 9:30am snack (which I have, but I have missed it for a week and just haven't been hungry for it)...no doubt due to burning a few more calories at the gym. (At least 500 burned last night.) And Mr. Scale is happy with me too. He gave me a 329.6 this morning, which I hope sticks around Thursday -- which will be my official weigh-in day before Vegas.
My one goal in Vegas now? Don't blow it! I fought hard to get in the 320s...I don't want to have to return to the 330s and fight again. After I get back, I'll focus on the 310s and fighting my way there!