Goals for the New Year
Sunday, January 02, 2011
I hate to call them resolutions, so I won't. Instead, I will think of them as goals for the New Year. I quit making resolutions about a decade ago because I never keep them. Of course, my main resolution was always to lose weight, and of course I had always let myself down a week into the year.
I have tried so many times to lose weight and have had some success at first - I've lost 20 to 25 pounds about 3 times now - but inevitably I always end up reverting to my old habits and gain everything back, plus some extra. I was doing great this past August and lost 8 pounds, and I felt like I was really going to do it, but then I got off-track because of working some crazy hours, and just lost momentum from there. I've now gained back every single pound that I had lost, and am once again mad with myself.
I really don't know how I'm going to do it this time, but I do know that I'm sick and tired of being fat and getting fatter every month. My 4 year old daughter told me the other day that I was fat, and said "but I like it that you're a fat mommy." That's terrible!! I don't want her to think of me as the fat mommy, but even more, I don't want her to think that it's okay to be fat. Until now, I've been fooling myself that she hasn't noticed.
I have alot of reasons now for not just wanting to lose weight, but needing to lose weight:
(1) I don't want to be the fat mom who my kids will be ashamed of.
(2) I'm not getting any younger, and time is running out for me to wear really cool clothes!!
(3) This weight problem has plagued me for 20 years, and it's finally time for me to get rid of it! I'm the only person who can fix this, so I need to stop waiting around for someone to bail me out here.
(4) I've been having bouts of pancreatitis and have so far avoided having an ultrasound - I'd be horrified to have an abdominal ultrasound with my midsection looking the way it is now!! I've been instructed by my doctor to go to the emergency room the next time I have another "attack" - so I'm hoping to lose as much weight as possible before this happens.
(5) I would really enjoy life so much more if I were thinner. I'm not hoping for a size 2 here, but 10 would sure be nice!
(6) The more fit I am, the more time I will have to spend with my kids (and hopefully grandkids one day in the distant future!)
I have realized that this will be a long journey. I need to lose 60 pounds, and realize that it's a slow process for me. I'm not sure if this is because of thyroid disease or my age or what, but I tend to lose alot the first week and then struggle from that point on. In the past, I've always thrown in the towel when my weight loss slows down, because I'm impatient and don't want to wait for the results. But I've finally realized that if I can lose even one pound a week, that would be 52 pounds in a year. That would be pretty amazing and would put me almost at my goal. So my goal this year is to lose 40 pounds - less than a pound a week, but at the end of the year I'd be at a weight that I'd feel good at. In fact, I'd be at the weight I was when I got married 9 years ago. I get very little sleep these days because of my work schedule - 4 to 5 hours a night generally - and that makes it hard to get exercise since I'd rather just sleep, but here's how I plan to reach my 40 pound goal this year:
(1) Stick to my calorie range (1500 cals or so) each day and avoid candy and baked goods during the week. I will have one "cheat day" each weekend where I get to eat one thing I've really wanted all week (I can forego the cheat day if I want to).
(2) Drink at least 80 ozs of water a day
(3) Exercise for at least 30 minutes, at least 4 days a week
(4) Get a small reward each month that I meet my weight loss goal (4 pounds a month)
(5) Take 30 minutes each evening to plan my meals for the next day
(6) Blog or journal at least once a week
I guess that should do it...here's to a fabulous 2011!!!!