A New Year, A New Me
Saturday, January 01, 2011
I can't quite explain why I feel so different about this time or this year. Maybe it's all the changes that I know will be occurring. All good changes - but some bittersweet. The thoughts of my only child turning 18 and graduating high school scares me to death, but at the same time it makes m so proud to see the young woman she's turned into. She's smart and talented with a good head on her shoulders. We haven't had any "real" trouble out of her and for that I am so thankful. It excites me to think of her starting her own life - further educating herself in college, finding a husband, and then having children.
And I will be marrying the most amazing man I have ever known. He is my best friend and loves me no matter what I "look" like. He loves my heart - what is inside me. And he loves my daughter. God truly blessed us both when He brought him into our lives.
I feel so motivated to lose this weight for them - not for myself. For my fiancé, for my daughter, for my future grandchildren. I want to be here for them for a long time. To love them and enjoy them.
And I will turn 40 this year. That alone is amazing to me. Just amazing. Some days it seems like I should be 16 again and some days it seems like I should be 90. Ah, but 40, that's just the beginning. Look out world - here I come!