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Friday, December 10, 2010

I am wondering why I let myself get out of control!! I guess I have ran Kids and worried about my husbands health so long that I didnt think about mine! I dont wanna be the bikini model I want to shop in the normal clothes and feel good about myself when I dress up!! My hubby is an awesome great looking man. And he is also a Supervisor for ConocoPhillips which means we have to attend several functions for work.... I cant go on like this, I cant embarrass my children any longer,( not that they would ever say I do) I feel sorry for them...

As tears rolling down my face I am confessing things noone has ever heard me say, I am so insecure and selfconcious its crazy! Its turned into anxiety attacks and some depression (that I hide very well).. I welcome anyone with any advice to help me and to push me and to stay on my butt to get this down I have a goal of more than this however my goal right now is to lose 50 pds by April!! I can do this RIGHT?!?!?

I am not going to ramble any longer I thank God for giving me Kelly and for her showing me this website!! Hope everyone has a GREAt Blessed day!!

~Katina~
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  • TKAYSMILES
    Welcome! I think you feel how we all did when we started! That is why we are here! Just know that it does work though! Think health instead of skinny!! Getting healthy will feel so good and spark life long changes!! Good luck to you and welcome!!
    3356 days ago
  • STUFFEDPUPPET
    You have nothing to be embarrassed about. Especially the way you feel about how you look right now. I feel the same way about how I look. My husband's new job has us in the public eye more too. I don't want to be the fat GM's wife. I have no clue how I got here. BUT that's ok - because now we know where we are and what to do to get where we want to be. I have the goal of losing 50 pounds by April as well. But I have tweaked that some. Kelly sent me an article about losing just 10% of body fat at a time. So that is my new goal. And while 50 pounds seems so far out there - 10% is almost right over the next hill. It looks and feels so much more reasonable. I will find it and send it to you. The HM girls are wonderful and you will love it. Thank you for sharing with us. Anything you need anytime. emoticon
    3356 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6500201
    Oh girl, I am so proud of you ! You have taken the first couple of steps.. You are here and ready to change and take your life back and that's huge! There are already so many great comments here!!! I know you can do this and I am so happy to be on this journey with you ! We will work through the hard stuff and celebrate the victories! Spark is the greatest place on earth to share your story and get the help and support you need. The people here are the amazing! These comments here prove that!
    Let's get this party started!
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    I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me
    Philippians 4:13

    Kelly
    3356 days ago
  • GARIHOOD
    Hello, and welcome to SparkPeople. I know you've made the right choice in coming here. You're going to find so much support and assistance here it's unreal.

    You've made a great start by opening up and typing up your first blog. Getting involved with other people around you who are going through the same thing will help you so much. When each of us is weak we can lean on the arms of others who pick us up and keep us going.

    50 pounds by April is a lofty goal. Doable, but not particularly easy. Personally, I think 2 pounds a week is very achievable and is a good, healthy rate to lose weight at. There are 16 weeks until the beginning of April, which makes 32 pounds very achievable. You can do 50, but it will mean you will need to be very vigilant about what you eat and how you exercise.

    GASP! Did I say the "E" word? Yes, I did. I don't think it's realistic to lose 50 pounds in 16 weeks without plenty (and I mean PLENTY) of exercise. Do you have exercise equipment or a health club membership?

    If you'll take some advice from a person who has been modestly successful (33 pounds since August), here's what I recommend you start doing.

    For your first two weeks, just ease into this new lifestyle change. It is a whole lifestyle change, not a quick fix that will fall apart when you reach your goal - otherwise you'll be back where you are now before you can blink. These changes have to be long-term. Too many people want to do everything quick. They run full speed in the beginning and make massive changes to their diet and exercise lives only to end up hitting a wall in the second or third week. I don't want you to be one of those people, and I don't think you do either. You want to succeed, and I want you to succeed too.

    So, here's what I'd like you to consider doing this first week: Make three changes. Just three, and other than taking a little bit of your time, they are pretty easy.

    1) Start drinking at least 64 oz of water a day. Some people will count coffe, tea, juice and soda as part of their 64 ounces. Don't do it. Try to drink all that water in addition to whatever else you're doing. If you're not used to drinking a lot of water, you'll feel like you're drowning in water the first couple days, but it'll get easier.

    WHY: Water is going to help kickstart your metabolism. Water will actually help you lose weight faster. Your body needs water to operate efficiently, and you want peak efficiency so that all your dietary and exercise efforts are maximized. The best part about this is that water is free! Just drink it and you'll be primed to burn more calories and lose more weight, even if you don't a single other thing.

    2) Track everything you eat in SparkPeople's nutrition tracker. And I mean EVERYTHING. Candy, soda, ketchup, mustard, pretzels, beer... everything! This will take a little time to get used to. You'll need to do some searching to find the things you eat, so that you can add them. You may even have to enter the nutrition information from some of your favorite foods yourself. But this is time WELL worth it. This tool will literally become your best friend. Take advantage of the "favorites" feature on things you eat often. You won't have to search for them in the future.

    WHY: If you're anything like me, you'll be AMAZED at what you find out when you start tracking your food. I couldn't believe how many calories I was eating. You'll start to see trends. You'll see patterns of when you eat. You'll see which things are hurting your efforts the most. You'll also begin to see potential improvements. Like putting mustard instead of mayo on that sandwich to save 100 calories.

    3) Start an exercise routine, but be realistic. If you don't exercise regularly, please don't try to run a mile three days a week right out of the gate.

    WHY: You NEED to exercise regularly to burn calories and lose weight. Sure, you can lose weight just by modifying your diet, but doing one without the other is like running a race using only one leg. Yeah, you'll finish, but it'll be a lot slower and a LOT harder than if you'd used both your legs. Also, if you start off too intense, you'll burn yourself out. Exercise will feel like... well... work. And who wants to spend free time WORKing out when it's too hard. Set some realistic goals, like walking for 15 minutes three times a week. You'll be able to gradually increase the duration and intensity later on. You'll want to eventually add more vigorous exercises like *GASP* jogging, or weight training to really get things moving. But you've got to work into it to keep from getting discouraged with how hard that stuff can be in the beginning.

    So, consider making these three easy changes in the first week. Add another change during week two, and another after that. Small changes, stacked one on top of the other will lead to large changes and a new healthier lifestyle that you'll actually be able to maintain your whole life.

    This isn't a sprint. This isn't a traditional diet, where you stop when you're done. If you do, you'll most likely revert to your old ways and end up back where you are now. This is a marathon. Think long term. Think about reworking yourself into a person who practices healthy habits. Believe me when I tell you won't want to go back to your unhealthy habits.

    I don't know you, but I believe in you. I know you can do this. There will be ups and downs. There will be barriers to break through, and it won't always be easy. You may not see success the first day, or the first week, but remember that each step you take in the right direction takes you closer to your goal. The only thing preventing you from reaching your destination is standing still or turning around. Just keep moving forward no matter what.

    If there is anything I can help you with, or if you have any questions, please let me know. I invite you to sign me up as a SparkFriend and I'll gladly return the favor so we can keep in touch.
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    3356 days ago
  • TIARAG03
    FIRST I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I AM SURE THAT YOU ARE NOT AN EMBARRASSMENT TO YOUR FAMILY ESPECIALLY NOT YOUR HUSBAND FOR BEING OVERWEIGHT. (SECRETLY WHEN WE FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE ABOUT SOMETHING BE IT WEIGHT, NOSE SIZE OR ANY OTHER THING THAT WE DON'T LIKE ABOUT OURSELVES WE THINK OTHERS THINK THAT TOO. BUT I CAN ASSURE YOU THAT PEOPLE ARE NOT THINKING AS NEGATIVE AS YOU ARE ABOUT YOU.) SECOND, I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU THAT I AM SO HAPPY THAT YOU ARE HERE WITH US!!!! I AM PROUD THAT YOU ARE ADMITTING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF NOW BECAUSE THIS WILL CHANGE. YOU WILL FIND THAT YOU ARE MORE AMAZING THAN YOU CAN EVER IMAGINE, THAT STRENGTH HAS ALWAYS BEEN MORE APART OF YOUR CHARACTER THAN YOU THOUGHT IT WAS, AND THAT DREAMS ARE NOT JUST FOR WHEN YOU ARE SLEEP, BUT THEY CAN BE REALIZED WHEN YOU ARE WIDE AWAKE!!!!! THIS JOURNEY IS NOT AN EASY ONE. BUT IT IS THE MOST REWARDING ONE YOU WILL EVER TAKE. I THINK YOU CAN LOSE WHATEVER AMOUNT OF WEIGHT THAT YOU PUT YOUR MIND TO. I WILL CHECK IN WITH YOU TO HELP ENCOURAGE, MOTIVATE AND SOMETIMES TO GIVE YOU THAT SWIFT KICK IF NEEDED BE. WE ARE ALL HERE WISHING YOU THE BEST!!!! YOU JUST HAVE TO WANT IT BAD ENOUGH AND JUST GET IN THAT GYM WITHOUT EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT!!!! THE WEIGHT WILL START TO COME OFF SO FAST YOU WILL BE AMAZED!!!!!! emoticon

    I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU,
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    TIARA
    3356 days ago
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  • JAYAPERS
    Welcome to your new extended family Katina! emoticon emoticon

    I have been here 5 days myself and LOVE it! The support is awesome! Here you can say and share all that pain, embarrassment, shame we have all stuffed for so many years. Your story sounds very similar to mine and many others I have read over the past 5 days. I have begun to realize I may be alone in my neighborhood, or at work, but not in the world...there are many of us crying out to be the healthier version of ourselves we know is inside us somewhere.

    Jenn
    3356 days ago
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