Wow. I Just Figured Out Another Personal Barrier to Exercise...
Friday, November 05, 2010
I was thinking about the fact that I have a distorted body image. The kind most people hear about is the reverse, probably, where someone who is normal or even underweight sees themselves as fat. For me it's the other way around. I don't see myself as fat. In my mind's eye I'm that slim, somewhat athletic, somewhat sexy, sassy, savvy girl (and therein lies another problem . . . I see 30-something actresses as "women" and myself as a "girl" -- I'm 46).
But I'm not that person, and when I exercise, or even move around a bunch, it becomes abundantly clear that I'm not that person; that I am huge and clumsy and I can't move as fast as I'm moving in my head. When I am active, it is impossible to retain my inner view of myself.
Hopefully this insight will help me when it comes to making that decision to flip channels or get up off my lazy butt.