This is me, spinning my wheels.
I'm tired, frustrated, and stressed out.
First of all, as I posted on my team thread in BLC14, it's official, I hate Wednesday weigh-ins.
I see NO way I'm going to get to bed by noon today, not with voting and Zumba, and then having to deal with some annoying banking issues (my bank wisely blocked my card because of a suspicious charge, but now I have to call several places to tell them NOT to charge the old card number for their usual payments and notify them I won't have a new card number for a week to 10 days and see how they want to handle that, plus call the company who took the bogus charge to dispute it), and actually make and eat food. *sigh* We've already eaten takeout WAY too often this week, so I'm sure my sodium intake been insane...so it's take out food again (and risk the crazy sodium) or cook and not get to bed on time...
Dammit this sucks. And there's no way to weigh in later on Wednesday unless we DON'T stay up to flip our schedule, which fubars my days off.
I am SO tired of bouncing around 220s - I was looking at my calendar summary last night and I've been just over and just under 225 for a month now. My lowest weight occurred on a week when I managed to work out - HARD - for 6 days straight, and I just don't think I can maintain that.
So yeah. Discouraged right now.
Probably doesn't help that I only got 5 hours of sleep before getting up for work tonight, finishing up Prisoner of Azkaban. On the good side, I DID finish, but that means I just started Goblet of Fire, my least favorite book in the series (honestly, I spent most of my first read-through of this book wanting to slap some sense into Harry). And this is where the books start getting thicker too - nearly twice the size as the first 3 books. And I think I'm going to read this, Order of The Phoenix AND Half-Blood Prince in 19 days?!?
On the exercise front...I nearly went to the gym anyway yesterday, but we needed to pick up a few things from Walmart, which is where I discovered the banking issue (yeah, THAT was fun...sigh), and between running to the bank to pull out cash to keep us going until the new card comes and then picking up lunch because it was already nearly noon...yeah, no gym, and STILL my intended "rest and read" day didn't happen until after we got home (and of course THAT derailed sleep, which just perpetuates the cycle of fatigue/frustration/discourage
I feel like I just can't get caught up - on sleep, on exercies, on all the stuff that needs to get done. I want off the hamster wheel now, thanks.
And TOM is looming too - which means I'm likely to be more emotional than usual the next couple of days (PRE-menstrual syndrome is an accurate description in my case). And then there's the bloating and weight gain that comes with THAT - see? Yet another vicious cycle, and they're all coming to head at once.
CALGON TAKE ME AWAY!
I'm sorry I've been such a downer here the last few days folks.
I'll pull out of the funk eventually.
Probably after I've slept away my days off and started the whole ride over with next weekend's time change.
You SURE I can't just crawl into my cave and come out when it's over?
Yeah, that's what I figured...
Ah well, at least they need me for *something* at work.