Starting over again!
Monday, November 01, 2010
It's been a while since I have been on here and the scale shows it! I was down to about 215ish about 4 months ago and then I stopped exercising and tracking food. The scale, slowly but surely, has creeped up.
Now I'm about 236ish and I feel every pound of it! I've noticed lately that my body, especially my joints, have started to ache again. Every time I go down the stairs my poor knees are screaming at me to lose weight. I in turn have been telling them to shut up and again I stuff my face full of whatever sweet treat happens to be in front of me.
Lately though God has been really convicting me. He keeps putting the pressure on and I kept saying, "No! I can't do it! I don't feel good! I can't go for a walk! I just want to sit here and nod off! I don't want to be in pain from walking! My knees hurt so much God!" But there again He kept pushing me gently. I kept getting this urge to at least stretch for a couple minutes before bed and then it was an urge to do a couple push ups on the wall before bed. Then it was, "I bet you can do at least 10 stomach crunches!" Slowly this week I've been getting these "urges" and have not faught them.
I told God that I was giving my life to Him and He made sure I really did! The whole week I kept having these thoughts, "You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you!" and "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer."
God was telling me that I needed to change my thinking. I needed to change the "I cant's" into "with You God, I can." I needed to trust Him. I needed to really give Him my whole self, including my body. So, that's what I'm doing. With His encouragement and His love I will get rid of all this nasty weight.
For instance just today, I was sitting on the couch nice and warm and cozy and God kept saying, "don't go to sleep, go for a walk with Lady!" I got up and got all of Lady's ski jouring gear and out into the woods we went. I haven't let her pull me for awhile. It took her a couple minutes to figure out what I wanted her to do and then it was like she switched to a different gear "oh yeah I'm supposed to pull you! YES!" and we were steadily treading down the trail.
An hour later we were back and I feel pretty good. I thanked God the whole way for getting me up and outside. He know's I needed it and if He is going to continue to use me I need to let Him continue to shape me and mold me. No more excuses!
"Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer." Psalm 19:14