Saturday, October 30, 2010
Yesterday started great. My business edition was printed and it looks so great! I am really proud and happy because it is my creation and the this was my third –one left this year – and the second in the new format, and it was improved ... then I drove and spoke to the owners of my seminar project and we agreed how to handle the fact that we have not been able to get many women to attend. Felt great because I have done the best I can and can´t do more. And in the afternoon I had one of those seminars, and there were ten women attending – which is success compared to the others, and it was interesting and inspiring and my day was perfect..
--and then I talked to my daughters teacher who had requested a private talk... it seems as my daughter has a hard time to concentrate and talks too much in the class room. She interferes and interrupts and although she is trying she can´t concentrate r stay still.
My conclusion is that she needs to move to me, but her way of showing her discomfort is not going to have any impact on her father. So I am powerless in this, but it makes me really really heartbroken. I simply don´t know what to do, there is no way I can use my ordinary solution and act myself out of this. The pain is great and I suffer. I also feel as if I have abandoned her, and that it is my fault that she is unhappy.
I am trying to practise faith and trust that it will be well. But for the moment I feel totally heartbroken and deserted