Sunday, October 17, 2010
Now that we are a week out from the girls birthday party Ive started getting pictures in the mail. Why is it that you never see how big you look or that what your wearing is not flattering in any way until you see it in a picture? I cant even begin to express how disgusted I am with how Ive let myself go. I know I had 3 babies in 2 1/2 years but ive always lost the baby weight right away some how. I gained 30 with McKenna lost 30 that week, 30 with Madison and lost it in a couple months and 10 with colin and lost that right away too. I know a lot of the weight I gained and am having trouble losing is from when i quit smoking. Which always makes me think is it healthier to be considered obese or to smoke? I know that taking up smoking isnt going to solve any problems and im so glad that i will be able to be a good role model to my kids in that aspect....but now i need to take control of my life in other ways so that i can be a good role model all around.
I need to start doing something about this now. I got the p90x videos last sunday so I will be starting those very soon...so excited :) (and scared lol) I need to take the pre 90x test and record the results 1st. and while im waiting for danny to buy his weights i think ill do some of the shred too.
I also started a job at jcpennys so hopefully being on my feet a couple times a week will also help me be a little more active too :) And now that i have some income coming in im thinking i can but a used treadmill for myself maybe for christmas :) we will have to see what happens but i hope!