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Weigh-In Day and Admitted Frustrations

Sunday, October 03, 2010

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Weigh-In Day

Starting Weight: 466.6
SP SW: 416.2
Last Week: 354.8
Loss/Gain: -4.4
SP Total Loss: 65.8
Total Loss: 116.2

Okay, let me explain why this doesn't make me happy. Two weeks ago I weighed in at 352.2. I was so happy to have gotten there, and I spent the next week being miserable with TOM, but good as far as nutrition and exercise went (save one day when I had too much Chinese food). The bloat from TOM was obvious by sight and feel. I'm now at the end of week 2 of TOM. Yes, week two. And not quite done yet. Thankfully the bloat started to come down early this past week and I was starting to feel more back to normal. This past week I was good. I worked out a lot. I ate within my ranges. I had a successful week. Yes, I had a milkshake yesterday, but I have been burning so many calories this week that Spark had been yelling at me that I'm not eating enough. I eat when I'm hungry. I ate good food most of the time.

So I had expected and hoped and prayed to see 349 today, but both of my scales fought me this morning. They went from 345 to 352. Both of them. They hate me. My boys are losing weight and I don't seem to be as successful ...and I'm trying much harder. I'm trying to let it go. I'm trying. But it's hard. I want so badly to be under 350, and it wasn't asking too much today because I have put the time, effort, and energy into it this week.

Maybe I'm not eating enough. Maybe I don't know what I'm doing anymore. Maybe I should just be happy with losing just under 2 pounds in 2 weeks of being good (really?).

Fitness next week:
* Today - No clue, might just take a rest day. *shrug*
* Monday - 2-3 miles elliptical or treadmill, boxing, tons of ST
* Tuesday - Zumba
* Wednesday - 2-3 miles elliptical or treadmill, rowing, tons of ST
* Thursday - Rest Day
* Friday - 3-4 miles elliptical or treadmill, biking, ST
* Saturday - Maybe another Rest Day *shrug*
* Sunday - 5k walk with the family

I need to focus on the fun I hope to have this weekend. I have to take a rest day Thursday because I usually don't fit in any exercise into my long days - I have 10 hours at my regular job, a city council meeting, and then work at the paper. I don't know what time I'll get home. But then on Friday afternoon, once Logan gets off the bus, I'll be heading up to my Mom's house in Ohio. Hopefully plans don't change too much because RAVENSONG is supposed to be coming down to meet me at my mom's to spend the long weekend.

On Sunday I have the 5k walk with my mom, my step-brother, my sister, my 2 nieces, my oldest son, and Becky (RAVENSONG). I don't have any goals for the race other than to support my mom and make sure she makes through it just fine. I'm hoping I won't have any problems keeping up with everyone, but that's about it.

Other than that, this week's lack of results are making me a little sad. Yesterday I took the boys down and we played racquetball for at least a half hour. Then later that day the whole family went up to the park again and we played tennis for about an hour (though I didn't play the entire time). I also did the grocery shopping even though I was super, super tired.

*sigh* Off to get ready for Ethan's football game where I'll try not to eat any bad foods just out of spite. I'll try to make up a few meals for this week later today. I still haven't managed to clean out my van, which is a MUST. Have to get to that tonight!!
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  • AGUAWOMEN
    Your doing well so far. Its coming off, and you are exercising. I can understand how frustrating it is not to see the scale move on down. I myself have only lost 9 pounds in 3 months. I haven't lost anything in three weeks. But I continue to remind myself of what I have lost, "Better of then on"Good luck you are doing well. emoticon
    3866 days ago
  • PNW_GIRL
    you've come SOOO far!!! I *know* how disheartening it can be when you work really hard and see no results, but just know that EVERY step in the right direction is a healthful one. Have you considered that maybe you're not losing so much because you're building muscle? I've also heard that muscles fill with water when they've been used a lot, so thats another thought.

    Just try not to let this bring you down. You inspire me with your optimism, humor, and success. Trust me, this is just a tiny little bump in the road. I know your next weigh in will be better.

    ((HUGS))
    3867 days ago
  • CBARRETT10
    Don't get discouraged! You're doing a great job! Let's continue the journey! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3867 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7009225
    Hang in there. You have done incredibly well and can't give it all up now! Yes, frustration is okay, we all get that, but you need to remember how far you have come, how much differfent and better you look and feel. The fact that you can even play racquetball and tennis is evidence enough! So, keep doing what you have been doing and give your body a chance to do whatever catching up it is doing! Hey, if this was easy, everybody would do it! And you are a fighter and can do this! Have a great week and be ready for next weekend! Sounds wonderful!
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    3867 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3543611
    Hang in there!
    3867 days ago
  • MAIA2011
    I logged and exercised for two months earlier this year and gained 16 pounds in those same two months. Actually 25 pound gain if you count the nine pounds I had been able to lose on SP. (I have an ongoing war with medications!) My point is that I feel your pain. There is nothing to do except keep on keeping on. That's good advice but I usually sink into a mindless eating depression myself. You are doing such a great job! Please don't let frustration get in the way of your continuing success!



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  • no profile photo CD5399895
    It is easy to become frustrated because we all have certain goals we want to achieve. I think you are doing excellent! You have come so far already and are such an inspiration to all of us. I think your workout schedule is AWESOME! Please rub off some of your exercise vibes my way. lol I'm actually going to have a milkshake today too because I deserve it. Every now and then a little treat is okay:) Have a great week!

    Angie
    3867 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7123070
    Don't get discouraged! Keep working at it and make sure you eat enough so your body has enough fuel. You can do it!
    3867 days ago
  • MUMU2BIKINI
    I bet next week you are going to love what you see on the scale! dont let this week get you down. You are doing an amazing job!!
    3867 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7428910
    Wow, you have my sympathy for a two week TOM!! emoticon

    As someone else already said, I also bloat significantly for ovulation and TOM. I just don't weigh during those times. I weigh in for my SP ticker right after my ovulation and TOM water spills out. I don't have set days for my weigh ins. I just know my body and know when my weight is going to have extra water, so I don't let that frustrate me. Twice a month is enough for me to update my ticker. I know I'm sticking with my program. Just keep with it, and stay one-pointed toward the goal.

    I'm just now finally breaking a month long plateau (my second since starting SP, oh YAY!) so I'm with you with the frustrations. We'll get there! emoticon
    3867 days ago
  • MONKEYSNUFFER
    Hang in there, it will get better. You've been making GREAT progress so far!
    3867 days ago
  • ATREAT4ME
    I share in this frustration and I'm convinced that for me it is driven my Female Hormones! I tend to gain weight both when I ovulate and when TOM arrives. My gains have been 3 and 4 lbs. at a time. The other two weeks a month, I'm losing as expected. But the frustration does set in and it is so hard to get past it sometimes.

    In self-defense I came up with a weigh-in procedures because I cannot be on an emotional rollercoaster that's driven by a weekly weigh-in. For me, this is going to be a long journey and a frank, realistic perspective will help me stay the course. It's kind of silly, super obvious, but I'm hoping it'll work for me. I blogged about it here: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_p
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    And while our journeys are unique, I do share in this frustration with you. You have done such amazing work and you've come so far. I am confident that some rest, some fun, and some refocusing will get you the rest of the way. You can do this! You have done this!
    3867 days ago
  • _COSMOPAULATAN_
    Damn girl... two scales? I can't even deal with one. You know, as well as I do, that this is a temporary setback. Next week? You have GOT IT! But, by the way, 4.4 pounds is amazing.
    3867 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3035359
    Don't let the number on the scale get you down...you are amazing and doing great!!!

    Sometimes it just takes a week or two for the scale to catch up!

    Do not eat bad food to spite the scale...it isn't about the scale...it's about you!

    So exhale....stick your tongue out at the scale if you have to emoticon

    You will get there! emoticon
    3867 days ago
  • WW_KAREN
    Don't get discouraged. Have you measured inches? Maybe you are gaining muscle. As much as you are working out, maybe you do need to eat more. I have found, as crazy as it sounds that if I stick closer to the higher end of SP recommended calorie range that I lost more weight than eating less calories. But you still did lose a good bit of weight this week. You are doing much better than I am at pounds lost weekly. My problem is I can't seem to commit to ST and cardio. I will get past that though. You are doing great!!!
    3867 days ago
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