If It Is To Be, It's Up To Me!
Saturday, October 02, 2010
About seven years ago I lost over 40 pounds on Weight Watchers. I maintained for several years. However, a serious ankle injury and a pretty bad break up led me to revert to bad habits. I looked for solace in the bottom of many cartons of Ben & Jerry's. Big surprise -- I didn't find it there.
Even after maintaining a 40 pound weight loss for a long time, I found it very easy to fall back to unhealthy ways when my personal life went kerflooey. While I can forgive myself for that, I'm determined to undo the damage to my health and to avoid repeating that pattern. For me, maintaining good health habits takes constant vigilance. I can't ever afford to get complacent. this means I have to be honest with myself (tracking my food and fitness helps tremendously), and also push myself a little (try a new fitness activity, be willing to go to bed a wee bit hungry, and so on).
Now that I'm in my mid-40s, with an 8 year old kiddo, I know it really is do or die time. Diabetes runs in my family, as does heart disease. And depression. So my goals are to get back to my best level of fitness, to wear a size 8 again, and to feel lots of vitality. I know that if it is to be, it's up to me.
I'm taking this journey gradually. My focus is on living a healthy, balanced life today -- not trying to force the scale down at a breakneck pace. I am living today the way I plan to live while maintaining (making good choices for nutrition and activity). The scale will get to goal eventually.