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Weigh-In Day

Sunday, September 26, 2010

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Weigh-in Day

Starting Weight: 466.6
SP SW: 416.2
Last Week: 352.2
This Week: 354.8
Loss/Gain: +2.6
SP Total Loss: 61.4
Total Loss: 111.8

Quote of the Day:
“It’s not who you are that holds you back, it’s who you think you’re not.”

I could give you a million excuses for this gain. Well, I could try, but I'm not really to the point of understanding, yet.

Let's review last week's goals:

Weight Goal: 350
(Let's face it...I'd love for it to be 349.9 or lower! *lol*)
emoticon Major Fail.

Food Goals:
* Measure everything! emoticon
* Record/track everything! emoticon
* Find some time to make dinners. emoticon I did PRETTY well with this, honestly. There were a few nights where things went a little wonky, but beside my one Chinese dinner, everything was on track at least with my calorie goals.

Fitness Goals:
* Sunday - 2-3 mile walk emoticon
* Monday - 1-2 miles treadmill or elliptical, abs on reclining bench, full ST, push-ups, planks, cable machine for hips emoticon
* Tuesday - Zumba emoticon
* Wednesday - 2-3 miles treadmill or elliptical, ST, rowing emoticon except the rowing
* Thursday - Zumba emoticon
* Friday - 3-4 miles treadmill or elliptical, ST, boxing -- emoticon Okay, not really. I got about 2 miles on the elliptical, and ST, but I didn't do the boxing because I traded in Zumba toning
* Saturday - C25k attempt 4 with modifications emoticon I just had to take a rest day. Of course, my rest included hiking up a huge hill to get to the house where we were attending a BBQ.

Ultimate fitness goal - Calorie burn of 3000-4000 emoticon 4404+ burned

Other Goals
* Write at least 1 page a day for 4 work days. emoticon
* Use extra time for writing articles. emoticon
* Look for and apply to at least 2-5 jobs. emoticon (2)
* Make sure all forms are in for Weight Management program through insurance company. emoticon BAH! I need to send mine in tomorrow.

So, no, I'm not quite sure how I got this far off track this week. I'm hoping it's a fluke, but I had a mini-meltdown this morning. You know the kind. Where you think how much of a waste it is to be constantly kicking your own butt only to not being seeing any results. I'm getting no closer to my weight goals this week, I'm getting further away, even though I busted my own butt and have the bruises and soreness to show for it.

I have no words of wisdom today. I'm angry at the process. I'm angry at myself because I'm not sure what went so wrong, but I still wish I could change SOMETHING to make it right. *sigh* It's rainy and cold outside, and that really reflects my mood.

Whatever. Moving on.

emoticon Nutrition Goals:
* Continue tracking.
* Stay within 1600-1800 calories.
* Eat healthy meals. Make ahead where possible, or make quick dishes that work with the plan.

emoticon Fitness Goals:
* Sunday - Cleaning at least 30 minutes, play some football with Ethan when the rain lets up
* Monday - 2-3 miles on elliptical or treadmill, boxing, ST, core and abs
* Tuesday - Zumba
* Wednesday - 3-4 miles on elliptical or treadmill, rowing, ST, core and abs
* Thursday - Zumba
* Friday - 4-5 miles walking, elliptical, or treadmill, ST, core and abs, rowing/boxing
* Saturday - Play with the kids for exercise (we're thinking of picking up a couple tennis rackets and some balls to play around on the tennis court), C25k Attempt or a long walk with Logan

emoticon Other Goals:
* Take some pictures. This calms me.
* Blog every day, even when it isn't pretty.
* Keep up with my team challenges.
* End September with a BANG!
* Find and apply to a few more jobs.
* Create a new vision wall for Fall.

*sigh* On we go. I hope next week sees me in a better mood. Sorry for the blah today, but can you blame me? It's really hard to feel like you've done all you've can and you still fall short. I know it's not a new feeling. I know everyone feels this way from time to time, but it hurts so much to feel not good enough to reach the goals I've set for myself. It hurts so much to see my fitness level improving and yet not seeing the scale go in the correct direction. I'm still over 350 pounds...I still have SO much to do, SO far to go. A wasted week kills me because I want to be in those 24s by Christmas and I keep feeling my goal slipping though my fingers. No matter how much I realize how far I've come, this week I just keep thinking it's not far enough.
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  • FLWRCHLD97
    You can do it, you can do it, you can do it, you can do it, you can do it, you can do it....


    ...just repeat over and over!!!! You are awesome, keep up the good work, you have come so far already!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3873 days ago
  • MAMADWARF
    You have lost a MASSIVE amount of weight! maybe you just need to level off and then you will drop again. I am SOOOO close to hitting my (mini) goal of 50 lbs... I really want to be there by tuesday which is my birthday but as long as I am there by 10/10/10 I will be ok. we just need to keep going and pat ourselves for the success we have had and the fact that we are doing this, every day, every meal, every minute. That is more than most people do, doll. You are really inspirational to me. You have lost the exact amount of weight that I set out to do so you are my hero. Carry on!
    3874 days ago
  • AMBERHENLEY
    It sounds like you are very active to me. From what your list says you only missed 2 days of exercise last week. Your body is probably building new muscles and muscles weigh more than fat. That could be the cause of your slight gain. Or PMS. Either way, you are doing awesome. Don't beat yourself up over 2 pounds. It's happened to me several times along the way. emoticon
    3874 days ago
  • MEGSFITNESS
    I bet, given your work outs, you'll definitely notice improvements in your arms and your abs. Yeah. YOU have abs! They're there! I know it! You can hold a plank for 30 seconds at 350 that I can't hold at 215. For serious. Ignore the scale for a weekend and focus on your non-scale victories.
    3874 days ago
  • MAIA2011
    I've been thinking about your blog all day. That sounds creepy LOL!

    I hate the weigh-ins because they either send me into a tailspin shame spiral like the last six weeks when I couldn't even get on the scale or I feel victorious and get cocky and let my healthy habits slide all the next week. My gut response to your blog is you've lost well over a hundred pounds. YOU ROCK! Who cares if you are up this week?!? Obviously you have the mental fortitude to handle these things better than I do so I want to know your secret!

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    3874 days ago
  • HARMONYBLUE
    I can totally understand your frustration but no matter long it take, we will get there. There is no time limit on getting healthy!
    3874 days ago
  • MAGPIE17
    It happens, but what's most important is that you keep going, Esther...I'm sure you'll see a loss next week!
    3874 days ago
  • GRANDMABEAST63
    Don't let this get you down Chica ! It happens, it happens to me quite often. It'a water gain, i.e.: Chinese will do that me. You will go out kicking in September. emoticon
    3874 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6721736
    girl I know how you feel. I had the same thing this week. It's ok...it's a new week and we got this!!!
    3874 days ago
  • X_NITSIRK
    I'd be angry and blah too. It is super hard when you know you've been focused and your body throws yuor goals for the week out the window. Take the time you need to be angry about it and then make sure to look at exactly how far you've come.

    You've lost 111.8 pounds - WOW - SUPER WOW. You are doing it - and you are doing awesome. You'll reach your goals because you work so hard - and have done so much!!
    3874 days ago
  • TWEETS9401
    Wow, your doing wonderful. You have lost a bunch of weight so far and it seems like you have a plan to keep it going. Well Done!
    3874 days ago
  • KILA1228
    Good luck on the goals this week!
    3874 days ago
  • ROOTIHAUSMAN
    Keep your head up. Take it one day at a time and do a little bit each day. You will be able to accomplish anything you set your mind too!
    3874 days ago
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