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New Self v's Old Self

Thursday, September 09, 2010

I love the phrase, "What will take me from where I am to where I want to be", I think I first read it in a Jack Canfield book and it really gives me perspective on what my priorities are.

I think that my priorities are pretty clear... I do KNOW where I want to be, the main road-block in my life is my own weird hang-up with getting thin again. I was always a thin person until I turned about 26. That was about the time that I had begun to settle into my marriage and finally got comfortable with myself. I had a rough year preceeding it and I think that I was just recovering from some very bad memories.

Sometimes I wonder if I self-sabbotage because I am affraid of putting myself in the company of certain people like those I had been around at that time. I seemed to attract a few weirdos in my life and it was very hard for me to just cut people off then (I have NO problem with that now). I am happily married now, so I know my issues are different now, but it's funny how the psyche works.

As we move through life, new problems arise and more hurdles are placed in the way of our goals. I am a pretty positive person and get random boosts of energy to clear the way for myself, but it's during those times of weakness that I need a system like Spark to help me through.

I love this place - it is my safe haven!!! I love all of my Spark friends who continue to lift me up as I discover who I am going to be.

My roadmap is to get me physically strong so that I can reach my ultimate goal of 125 lbs., and continue with a healthy lifestyle. I know how important my health is - both of my parents had emergency gallbladder surgeries in their 50's. I soon lost my mom to cancer and my dad is now struggling with it, so I know I need to follow a different path in good health.

This new challenge has come at the perfect time. I need the motivation to keep going and I hope to lose at least 24 pounds and much more endurance with it. emoticon


UPDATE: I just found out that I'm on the Periwinkle Pirates Team ... Hmm - wasn't on my list, but I came in way too late to really choose :( Oh well, I hope to meet a lot of awesome Sparkers in there!
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    Sweet blog!

    So glad you feel you can open up and feel this is a safe place to be with all that stuff.

    Lots of

    3890 days ago
    I believe we all sabotage ourselves at one time or another. You happen to be fitness, some are financial, others tend to be in the wrong place at the wrong time (often due to hanging out with the wrong people!).

    Stay positive, keep trying, and we love being here too!
    3892 days ago
    I self sabotage too and I don't know why yet. I have GOT to figure it out because I want to be thin again too! You're doing great girl! Keep it up! Love ya!
    3892 days ago
    Great blog and great goals! The pirates will be here for you every step of the way. Can't wait to get to know you!
    3892 days ago
    Good luck on BLC!! I'm so excited we are all doing it! I know you can reach your goal!
    3893 days ago
  • DEE797
    Good blog. Good Luck with the Pirates and BLC14! emoticon
    3893 days ago
    Oh I'm a Crushing Cranberry again! Just saw the posting!
    3893 days ago
    Great blog honey! Good luck with BLC14, you will do great! I hope I blow it out this time around. It is so frustrating that I struggle to lose 1 pound where others drop 10. Argh! lol
    3893 days ago

    LOve you blog. you will lose that 24 lbs, my goal is 20 -30
    3893 days ago
    I love your new profile pic ... you look so pretty. Thanks for the heartfelt blog. I hope you reach your goals and I hope you love BLC. I'm a little concerned because I haven't gotten a team assignment yet. I've been on the pirates in the past; I think you'll like the team. Fun gals.

    3893 days ago
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