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A Year Later...

Monday, September 06, 2010

A year later and I am back to the same weight I weighed this time last year. It is easy to get down on myself and talk about where I could be had a not quit the program and gained back 20 pounds, but it isn't very productive to go that route, so I will just be thankful that I have gotten it together in the past 60 days and dropped that 20 pounds back off. Now I can start looking forward to the real goal of getting back into a healthy weight range.

I am feeling a little discouraged today to only see a 0.8 loss for my weigh-in. I am actually 0.2 short of my 20 pounds by my birthday goal. Hopefully I can kick the 0.2 by Thursday. I imagine the chocolate chip cookie and the birthday cake I ate yesterday didn't help me realize my goal at weigh-in this morning. Either way, I joyfully wore a pair of favorite pants that I haven't work in probably 4 years yesterday and my wonderful mother commented to me when I arrived at her house that my pants were starting to look a little big! These pants?! This is the first time I have worn them in years! Guess it really is time to let go of the size 16's!! Yay for that!

I treated myself to the cookie with my Starbucks (Venti Americano, 25 calories) because I didn't realize that my mom had baked me a birthday cake for later in the evening. But really, what difference does it make?! My family was celebrating my birthday: how could I turn down my favorite birthday cake? It is the ongoing choices and actions that I make that make the difference. I have a Labor Day BBQ to attend today, so I intend to try to make the best choices while still enjoying myself. I never want to be heard saying, "Oh, I can't eat that!" That is NOT what this is all about. This is life. And my life involves good friends and good food at times. I also cannot live this portion of my life in restriction and denial, only to break down and altogether quit once I achieve some semblance of my goals.

Last year, shortly after my birthday, shortly after losing 50 pounds with Sparkpeople, I quit. It started out with leg pain and allowing myself to rest. And then I stopped logging in, stopped spinning the Spark wheel, and stopped making healthy choices. I hung out around this weight for the rest of the year, but after the first of this year, stress led me back to binge-eating which led the scale up and up and up. This year, it will be exciting to watch the scale continue to go down. I hope to reach my goal by the end of this year, but if I don't, as long as I stay on track, I will be proud of what I am accomplishing. Because in all truth, once I reach that scale number, the real work really begins: learning how to maintain a healthy weight and lifestyle for the rest of my life.

Happy Labor Day!

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    HAPPY BIRTHDAY! May this year be filled with wonderful tidings for you!

    3795 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/8/2010 9:30:01 AM
  • JDFAN448HS
    Hello BDay girl. In honor of your blog I will get out my trusty step
    counter and see how many stides I can make today. Thanks for
    being inspirational.
    Always give love,
    3796 days ago
    Enjoy your birthday! And it still sounds like you are making good progress even with the birthday cake. :p
    3796 days ago
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