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Weigh-In Day = Battle Summary

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Quote of the Day:
“It’s hard to beat a person that never gives up.”

Weigh-In Day

Starting Weight: 466.6
SP SW: 416.2
Last Week: 364.0
This Week: 358.4
Loss/Gain: -5.6
SP Total Loss: 57.8
Total Loss: 111.2

Thus ends my first battle.
Mental Roadblocks and Fat Girl Inside = 0. Esther's Inner Skinny = 1.

I'm not going to say this week was easy. Most of the time I was "phoning it in" as Jillian calls it. But you know what? Sometimes showing up is the most important part of the battle. Sometimes doing what you're supposed to do while kicking and screaming (and, yes, even crying) is what gets you through. It seems that I do actually know what to do, and that's a comfort to know when I'm facing the Fat Girl and the Mental Roadblocks that hold me back.

In Day 1:
I set my goals. I got my head on straight. I told myself, "If not this week, next week. If not next week, the week after." It was all about moving forward and continuing the fight, even when it hurt, even when I really didn't want to, even when I wanted to just sleep and eat chocolate cake. (I have learned that watching wedding cake shows on TV makes me crave eating those wedding cakes! *lol* Not saying I'll stop watching them, but I should always have some healthy alternative on hand when I do.)

In Day 2:
I thought my ship was sunk with the pizza buffet and a shot in the arm that made me want to do absolutely nothing. But instead of fighting myself, I changed it up. Around 4pm I turned to Hubs and said, "I don't want to go to the gym!" in my best whiny voice. At 4:20pm or so I turned to him again and said, "Okay! I have an idea! Instead of going to the gym, why don't we pack up the bikes and the dog and head to Cedar Lakes instead?" Hubs was excited and so were the kids, and we knew Joey would be super happy about it. So I walked and took it easy but sweated a bunch. I still challenged myself with that hill and with the try on the bike. And I went home feeling proud of myself and just plain happy.

In Day 3:
I procrastinated like it was my sacred duty, like the world would fall apart if I did what I was supposed to do. For like 2 hours I sat here making a plan of action for cooking. I wanted to make sure I did everything the most effective way I could. I wanted to perfect this art of prepping and cooking for the week. Around 1pm I started cooking, and by 6pm I gave up the ghost with 2 dishes done and the ingredients chopped for a third dish. I was so hungry (I thought) all day while I was cooking yummy food. And, yes, I sampled a bite or two - which, btw, is why I keep my calories on the lower end. I could probably easily eat 2,000 calories a day every day and still lose weight right now, but I figure I should aim low in case I miscalculate and/or take a bite of something here or there. Nothing awful went into my mouth yesterday. A bite or two of mozzarella cheese was the biggest thing I remember.

Finally, after eating a huge bowl of Jambalaya (OMG the amount you get is ridiculous!) and rice, I sat on the couch and watched Radio on TV. (*love* that movie!) It was dark outside before I started regretting the fact that I didn't even walk a mile yesterday. I had two choices - 1) call it a rest day and break my workout streak and my goal of working out every day, or 2) find a DVD to do. Jillian's 30-Day Shred was just sitting there. I hadn't tried the thing since May and I was still dreading the jumping jacks. After the first round and a half of real jumping jacks I realized something ....I couldn't breathe. My heart was racing. Yes, I was working out TOO hard. I knew my heart rate was over the aerobic zone and that wasn't going to do me any good, so I gave myself permission to modify and keep my heart in the right weight loss and heart building zone instead of pushing too hard. Yes, I still cried. It was the bicycle crunches...I didn't give up on them, but by the end I was cursing the TV and Jillian herself. But I did it. And I collapsed over the side of the couch and cried, and Shane asked me why I didn't just give up and end it early and I think I said something like, "She said I was a sissy if I gave up!" And we all laughed. And about 10 minutes later I loaded the Day 1 bootcamp video here on Spark and did that too. (MUCH more fun! *lol*)

Pictures from Yesterday:

Cutting up the "root vegetables" for today's cooking - Slow Cooker Beef and Root Vegetables

Slicing mozzarella for the Pan Chicken Parmesan

Bagging the ingredients for the Beef & Root Vegetables meal

The andouille sausage I almost didn't find at the grocery store

Cooking the chicken for the Chicken Parm while...

The jambalaya cooks in the slow cooker

Letting the Chicken Parm cool before I put it in containers in the fridge

One HUGE serving of Jambalaya (finally!). I really was hungry at this point!!

Battle 2 begins today!
Battle 2 = 355

Goals for the Next 7 Days:
emoticon Healthy and healthful lunches.
emoticon Get adequate fruits and veggies.
emoticon Use healthy snacks like apples and grapes.
emoticon Stay between 1600 and 1800 calories (no more than 2,000 on high cardio days)
emoticon No less than 64 ounces of water per day.
emoticon Get plenty of sleep.
emoticon Keep your head in the game!
emoticon Exercise at least 15 minutes per day. 30 minutes + on at least 4 days this week.
emoticon Strength train 3 days.
emoticon 300 crunches this week.
emoticon 10k this weekend! Don't finish last, but more importantly, FINISH!

Going to get ready now for Ethan's football game. His game is at 1pm, but we have to be there at 11:30pm for weigh-in and warm-ups. We're going to have a fun day! I'm going to wear my tennis shoes and try to get in some laps around the track. I may try Bootcamp video 2 tonight too.
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    wowie zowie, you already 'went, girl'!!! SOOOO productive...you inspire me...next Sunday, i'll prepare ahead...i WAS proud that i PLANNED the whole week's eating and groceries...but now i lOOk like a slouch...i'm still proud but YOUR buttons should be popping!!! WEIGH to go!!! emoticon
    3901 days ago
  • MENACE79
    Mmmm... I want to eat everything you made! I love that feeling of productivity. Where did you get the jambalaya recipe? Looks fantastic!
    3901 days ago
  • MAGPIE17
    Woohoo, win the battles, Esther!
    3901 days ago
    Keep up the good work. U reminded me of not wanting to give up even though Im tired.
    3901 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6721736
    you're doing great!!! I love how you pushed yourself to still get out and get moving even if you didn't go to the gym!!Thats how to get it done!!
    3901 days ago
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    3902 days ago
    Woohoo! Congrats! emoticon
    3902 days ago
    Oh how I love the way you set your goals! You go girl! I want to come to your house for dinner! yum. that looks fabulous! Have great week. emoticon
    3902 days ago
    You make me cry with joy.
    3902 days ago
    you are doing great! you are worth it!!!!

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    3902 days ago
    Girl you are doing it ALL!
    3902 days ago
    I'm exhausted just reading what you have to do. You are doing so awesome by planning out your meals. I do the same and it helps so much. It eliminates the "middle of the week" trips to the grocery store. Plus, its so great to wake up in the morning knowing that you don't have to pack a lunch. Love me some of that extra sleep time! Way to go! No stopping now!
    3902 days ago
    You are an inspiration. Keep it up. Doesn't it feel great!
    3902 days ago
    DANG! You are KILLING those pounds!!
    3902 days ago
    Sooo Jillian Makes you feel like the devil too huh?? LOL Sometimes I could slap her, yet if I ever got the chance I would hug her soo tight! lol Your dishes look amazing, I am learning to cook, but still not very good at it. Every time I click on your page I am more and more inspired by you!
    3902 days ago
    Lol! I just realized that second picture is a turnip (i think) and not the mozzarella! D'oh!
    3902 days ago
    You go girl. The pics of your food cooking are gorgeous. Enjoy!!!
    3902 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7900760
    I'm so impressed. You go girl. Wow!
    3902 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7009225
    Wow! You had a great week, even though it sounds like you had some stumbling over the mental part! But you should be so proud--it sure sounds like you are! And you have a 10K coming up, right? You will be ready and you will rock it! Have a great week!
    3902 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2405644
    You had an absolutely stellar week. Nice job!
    3902 days ago
  • DLEE27
    Way to go on DOMINATING Battle #1!!!!!
    The food looks yummers!
    3902 days ago
  • _SASX_
    Awesome, sweet thing! You are doing so amazing, and YOU ROCK for not 'phoning it in'!! It's hard, but you did it!!
    3902 days ago
    Fantastic week! The food looks lovely! Have fun at the game, and I hope next week goes just as well - best of luck with the 10k, you WILL rock it!
    3902 days ago
  • ERIN4771
    i'm glad i'm not the only one jillian yells at...lol....you are doing so great on your journey, your progress is inspirational....thank you for that emoticon
    3902 days ago
  • ERIN4771
    i'm glad i'm not the only one jillian yells at...lol....you are doing so great on your journey, your progress is inspirational....thank you for that emoticon
    3902 days ago
    Haha, I can't watch cake shows either :P And as for your calories, don't keep em too low!! You're creating your skinny metabolism right now, and if your body gets used to surviving on less than 2,000, weight maintenance can get pretty sticky (well, sucky that is...). So take your time, baby that metabolism, and KEEP IT UP!!!

    111 lbs, OH MY AWESOME!!!
    3902 days ago
    Sounds good. Hey if you would send me a link to the Jambalaya recipe - I'd love to try it. Looks delicious.
    Nice pictures. and yes...Congrats on beating the 360's. It's definitely good that you keep chipping away by just showing up. I've only been at this for 5 weeks, but I can see the rewards of consistency already. It's my self-esteem and energy perks.

    3902 days ago
  • LIS193
    You are doing great and you are so right - showing up is half the battle. You're here, right? emoticon
    Thanks for posting your pictures - it looks really good.
    3902 days ago
    "The fact that something is difficult doesn't mean it's impossible to do" That's what I tell my students every day when they complain and just give up, but you my friend are the perfect example of strength of character.

    I really like your plan and the fact that you have prepared your meals for the whole week. It's a time-saver plus you're less likely to be tempted to eat something else if your meal is already prepared. Another spark friend recommended a site called lovefoodhatewaste.com that has a two week meal plan and shopping list which help you save time and money.

    Keep up the brilliant work and have fun at the game!

    Elen xxx
    3902 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5399895
    Congrats on that huge loss this week!!! You killed it! emoticon emoticon . I've always wanted to make jambalaya but think its to much work. lol Have a great day!

    3902 days ago
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