I. Am. Addicted. To. Food.
Monday, August 23, 2010
I want to lose weight and be healthy so bad....yet I still eat crap! The weekends are what really me, but even sometimes during the week! I am even in a Weight Loss Challenge on Wednesday nights so you think that would motivate me even more...Nope! I still go out to eat on the weekends and have not exercised on Saturday or Sunday this weekend. Now I feel super guilty.
I did get up this morning and figure out how much I needed to work out to try and burn off what I ate and I got dressed and was ready to go. Then this staffing agency calls, asks if they can call me back in 2 minutes, and half an hour later they still haven't called me back. There goes half an hour of my workout! So I called her back, left a voicemail and said I'd be busy until 12. I walk down to the fitness center in our apartment complex (which is pretty small) and EVERY cardio machine is taken up. WHAT?? There is never anyone down there when I go at that time, much less that many people! Did God just not want me to exercise today or is he trying to teach me that I need to make better decisions on the weekends because I won't always be able to make up for it during the week??
So I came back and did a little bit of Wii Cardio Boxing. Hopefully I'll go back later tonight to get in a good workout. BUT that wasn't until after I had a little break down. I came back from the fitness center and started to cry! Who does that just because they can't get on a machine? I can't believe I was crying, but I was so frustrated, guilty, and upset with myself!
I am so worried about the weigh-in again...and I am leaving to go home for the next week and you know what that means...my mom's cooking and eating out with lots of friends and family! Uggghhh....
Why can't I just resist bad food for a couple months until I get to my goal?!?! Then I can go to my maintenance plan, which seems to be working (Be good during week, exercise a lot, and eat out occasionally on weekends). I mean...this food is killing me, it's not good for me, so why can't I not eat it!
I, Robin, am addicted to Food!
Well, it feels good to vent! Maybe I need to become more active on Sparkpeople and talk with more people and find out that people are going through the same struggles! Maybe I should blog more, make my food log available for everyone to see...I don't know! All I know is I need to do something about my will power....and believe me, I have been praying about it!
Hope you all are having a better Monday than I am!
Addicted To Food Robin