Friday, August 20, 2010
Thats what i've been doing today. And, I was trying SO hard to be good then just couldnt do it anymore. Determined to get back on track tomorrow, starting with a morning run.
My doctors appointment the other day is the reason for this emotional/stress eating. First, i met my new doc and I have to say - I LOVE her! She is so friendly and has wonderful bedside manner. I immediately felt comfortable with her. Well, we discussed many of the hormonal type issues I've been having and I told her that planned parenthood had said that I had PCOS. (remember that blog?). Anyway, we talked more then she said that it definitely could be PCOS as those symptoms are obvious signs of it but it could be something else too depending on what the lab results say etc. Anyway, she ordered 5 different tests and did the lovely female exam. Got my blood taken blah blah blah. Well, I got the results back today. Everything came back NORMAL. ugh. So frustrating. So she calls me and says well thats good news and bad. Good because its of course nice to be normal but bad because now we dont know what the issue is. She said there is a chance it could still be PCOS, but she now wants me to go get a sonogram done of my ovaries. In the meantime, she prescribed a birth control pill that has a higher dose of hormones.
With all of this info, I am frustrated, sad, and scared. Frustrated because I just want to know what is wrong with me. Even if it is something really bad, i'd rather just know. I hate NOT knowing and trying to guess. Also, most of my symptoms are embarrassing and I really want it taken care of! I'm sad because obviously its something to do with my female parts and she already talked to be about infertility. Also she said if it is PCOS, she thinks i have a case that cant be treated with JUST birth control but i will also need something like metformin for insulin which can hurt your fertility even MORE. So, someday when I finally get married to that doctor out there somewhere, and live in my mcmansion, there is a HUGE chance that I wont be able to have little mcmuffins running around. And finally, I'm scared because of the unknown. And of the fact that she wants the sonogram of my ovaries. Normal every day healthy people dont get this done. Ugh.
So all of that has led me to eating all sorts of junk today that wont get me to palm springs and the last thing I am wanting to do today is work out. Thats for me to worry about tomorrow i guess.
Oh and, went to the optometrist today - i need glasses. Not all the time just..while driving, watching tv, when i'm at the movies, on the computer, and at night - phew. At least i picked out cute ones. And will be getting prescription sunglasses too next paycheck. Got cute ones picked out for that as well - Dolce and Gabana Aviator type sunglasses. People were going crazy in the store telling me how amazing they looked on me when the girl had me try them on. Too funny.
Alright sparkers, I hope you all had a nice day. I will hopefully have a better report tomorrow.