Where did I put me?
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Help! I can't find myself. I'm not sure where I put me. I just know that the person looking back at me from the mirror is an impostor. She's on edge. She snaps. She could cry at the drop of a pin. Her smiles are not as frequent. She feels nothing is going right. Hot flashes are way too frequent. Night sweats keep her up. To be honest, she feels like she is going crazy. No joke, this is really how she feels. This person can't be me!
Today I spoke to my doctor. I asked him if weight lose has any effect on hormones.
I thought weight lose would lessen menopause symptoms. He said estrogen is stored in fat. With my weight lose, I'm also losing my estrogen. He smiled and assured me I wasn't going crazy. He probably felt sorry for me, after all my eyes were full of tears. So after being off hormones for a year, I'm starting again. I'm not crazy after all. I can't wait to feel normal again. I can't wait to find myself!!! I've missed me very much,