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The 5-Miler That Wasn't

Monday, August 16, 2010

So even though I blogged and had every intention of squeezing out that 5 mile training walk this weekend, it simply didn't happen. Maybe it was fear. Maybe it was lack of motivation. Maybe it was being sick or TOM or the sun. Whatever it was, it just didn't happen.

Friday was great. I packed up my youngest and took him with me to the gym (they have a playroom for the kids so the parents can get some workout time in). He got a chance to see me box and walk the indoor track, but it was a one time deal considering the rules of the gym state that until he's 10 he has to stay in that playroom the whole time, except for potty breaks. I did 30 minutes on the stationary bike (and wowie! my hips were hurting after!) and then got in 15 minutes of boxing (getting faster on the speedbag) followed by a full round of ST, including an extra machine - the seated bench press.

Saturday is where is all started falling apart. First of all, let me tell you that waking up at 6am is not my idea of a good time on a Saturday. But we got up and got everyone ready and headed to Mineral Wells/Parkersburg for the football scrimmage. Ethan somehow got taken off his defensive spot (no clue why) and was only on offense as a left or right guard. In 4 hours I got to see my boy play probably 15 minutes (in 3 five-minute increments). It was quite...well, annoying. I spent much of the time avoiding the sun, which started out alright when we planted ourselves next to two of those canopy things. In the early morning hours this worked out well as the sun was slanted in from the other side and we enjoyed the shade most of the time. But as the time passed and the sun rose higher in the sky, we ended up in full sun. And while I loved the coolness of the heavy breeze blowing in, it made it nearly impossible for us to seek shelter under the umbrella I had. By hour 3 I was starting to feel the effects of the sun, even though I slathered myself in SPF 50 no less than 3 times while we were there, I ended up feeling sick to my stomach in the last 20 minutes or so.

By the time we left the game Ethan was begging for food and instead of pulling out the ingredients of a healthy sandwich (which we had packed and had ourselves enjoyed while watching him), I pulled through the Wendy's drive-thru. (BAD!) I ended up munching on french fries and a small chocolate frosty on the way home (figured out later that my calories were too low that morning and I was starving for some sort of food!). (BAD again!) I got home with only one goal in mind - time in the water at the lake. It wasn't until I sat down to wait for Logan to find his swimming trunks that I realized I was exhausted. But I took them anyhow, because I had promised them this and I knew if we stayed home I wouldn't be active.

Fast forward to another application of sunscreen and another 2 hours in the sun (and water) and by the time I got home I had just enough energy to undress and crash on the bed. Woke up two hours later feeling the effects of what I can only assume was sun poisoning. It really didn't make much sense to me...the sunburn on my shoulders was just a soft pink, barely there at all, but perhaps my already tanned skin masked the visual effects a little. I know this feeling of too much sun, growing up a fair-skinned redhead you learn quickly that sunscreen is your friend and that it doesn't always help.

Sunday I woke up not feeling so hot, but still intent upon getting my 5 miles in...later...when it cooled down a bit. Around noon my oldest and I tried to tackle the garden a bit, but after 30 minutes I got a severe dizzy spell and knew that I needed to lay down. I went inside and stayed dizzy and sick the rest of the day. Everytime I got up I felt like the room was spinning. Half the time I was laying down and closing my eyes it felt like *I* was spinning. It was NOT a good feeling. And I ended up laying on the couch in front of the fan, sweating from the heat and humidity, angry, upset, and confused, and DIZZY! Hubs grabbed some Chinese for dinner, which I proceeded to eat too much of, and then I had a pumpkin white chocolate chunk cookie as we watched movie after movie on the TV until bedtime.

This morning my shoulders still feel like they're on fire. I had horrible dreams last night that kept waking me up and I overslept and missed a little work this morning. I'm trying to push through, but I just feel emotionally and physically drained.

I'm pretty darn good at doing what I'm supposed to do even if it hurts, (I would've never gotten through 3 whole years of FT school + FT work + PT work if I wasn't) but all I keep waiting for is a break. It feels a lot like work right now with this training schedule and I can't wait to go back to it feeling a little more fun. Once this 10k business is over, I'm giving myself some time off from training. I'll still do the 5ks, because I know I can. I'll still walk as much as possible so that I'm prepped for them, but I can't stick to suck a strict schedule all the time. Sometimes, it just has to be fun. Sometimes I just have to have that feeling that the gym is my jewelry box and I can wear whatever I want to make myself feel pretty, sexy, and accomplished.

My five miles didn't happen, but I have another go-round scheduled for Wednesday and I'll get it done somehow. I'm planning on trying to get more sleep this week so that I don't feel so drained in the morning. That's going to be a challenge considering I work until 6pm and don't usually get to the gym until 7pm, but I've got to make it work somehow. It's going to be a go home, eat, shower, bed kinda week. Ethan's first game is on Saturday (thankfully, not until 5pm!) and I can't wait to see him get a little more game time (I hope! They just have SO many players and they're trying to get everyone in...).

I know what you're thinking - I should work out in the morning. Yea, that doesn't usually work for me. I am NOT a morning person and I already get up at 5:30am just to get myself ready to leave the house by 7am for work. (I commute nearly an hour to work...) Maybe I can give this a go again soon, but first I need to focus on that one goal - the 10k. What's more...I need to focus on one part of that goal first - 5 miles. It sounds so daunting and time consuming, and that's part of what is scaring me off. I know in my heart I can do it, I'm just plain scared of it, and angry with it for some reason. Time to focus and make it happen anyway, I'll deal with the rest of it later.
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  • SURCH1
    It's no fun feeling under the weather. You can do it!!! 5 Miles will seem like nothing before too long!!! Hang in there girl and you'll be breezing through the finish line at the 10K... Keep it up!!!
    3914 days ago
    I'm sorry that you felt so crappy!! You did what you could though, some days just arent meant for exercise. Those 5 miles are there for you to walk whenever you are ready!
    3915 days ago
    I'm sorry you are feeling so crummy! Take time to heal honey. And this thing about training...it's at your own pace...so if you aren't up for 5 miles yet, do 4.5 or 4. Exercise (even training!) doesn't work if it's a burden. Give yourself permission to take time off training for a bit if you need to...there will always be another 10km walk. Just make sure you are doing something healthy, even if that means sleeping and logging in here. I love you and hope you are feeling better SOON!
    3915 days ago
    Sounds like an exhausting weekend -- don't beat yourself up for missing your run. Your blog sounds so familiar to me! I am training for a Half Marathon and I am just getting a bit tired of it all -- feels like work and the longer runs are torture! I got in my 8.8 miles yesterday but it was supposed to be 9.5 miles and the rest of the day I just felt ouchy and sore and it was hard to sleep last night because I couldn't find a way to be comfortable even with ibuprofen on board... but on the flip side, I feel much better today and I survived it! I will have to tell myself this next time I don't want to go.

    I am also not a morning person at all (I work graveyard shift for goodness sakes!) so my ideal workout time is about 10AM... not always ideal for fitting in other things... but it works for me most of the time... I have been known to put it off all day and then I am working my tail off in my dining room (aka workout room) at 8:30pm with the kids all up and bothering me the whole time... BLAH. But my goal is not to miss any scheduled day and I plan for 1 rest day per week (plus one day which I only play indoor soccer int he evening so it feels like a rest day too... :))

    Sorry to ramble on -- just thought I'd say you are NOT alone out there... it is hard for everyone, a lot of the time. But totally worth it in the end!!
    3915 days ago
    Listen to your body it knows best. Sun poisoning can really knock the wind out of your sales (blonde hair blue eyes, I feel you with the sun screen). Do what you can, the best that you can, that's all you can ask from your body. Fast Food happens; you can't be 100% perfect all the time.

    You have this 5 miles, I know you can do it.
    3915 days ago
    I Love, love, love the jewelry box analogy and I would be careful about trading having fun working out and losing weight for a single event (10K). With that said, I think you'll do fine if you are careful of the sun!
    3915 days ago
  • SUGIRL06
    The sun always makes me tired too! Its best to listen to your body which you did so good job!!! And I hear you about the training! I wish it was over already so I could do whatever I want!!! But at least it keeps me busy. Like this weekend I am super busy AND I have an 11 mile run to do! If I didn't have to do that run, I probably would be "too busy" to work out at all (excuse) so I guess in that way, its a good thing? But there are days where I just wanna do Zumba instead of running! Or something else equally fun. When is your 10K?
    3915 days ago
    Yep, too much sun is rough on the body. Glad you listened and took it easy. Hydrate like crazy the next few days and you'll get your energy back!
    3915 days ago
    Yep, the heat got to you and the best thing for you to do was take it easy. You listened to your body...yay you!!!

    Perhaps your fear is what is keeping you resistant to the 10K. I don't know if this will help, but maybe you can be like the little train that could & just keep saying "I think I can, I think I can, I think I can" and give it your best.

    Good luck in whatever you do today. You may still need some rest, so don't beat yourself up if that's what you end up doing.
    3915 days ago
  • KARVY09
    I'm glad you listened to your body and rested!

    I like the idea of the gym as a jewelry box. Go have fun! Definitely don't do it out of a feeling of obligation because that's a great way to get sick and tired of it!

    Hope you are feeling better today!
    3915 days ago
    Ugh - I hear your sun poisoning pain - it was a rough weekend for that! Thankfully today it has cooled off immensely where I am and I was able to get a run in this morning and actually be cool when I ended it. Sending cooler weather vibes your way for the 5-miler!
    3915 days ago
    BAD sun girl!!! sun stroke and heat stroke is evil...I know all too well those evils, being fair and red headed myself...well a lot of grey now...but typically red...LOL

    I know how you feel, a few weeks ago I was sunburned so badly that I couldn't bend my knees to even run, i missed a few, rescheduled and got back on track...so today is a new day and you keep on moving I tell ya!!!

    Now...stay the hell out of the sun!!!
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    3915 days ago
    Sounds like you had a sunstroke & dehydration; not good I know. So you ate some Wendy, psst that's how you grow. You have to fail in some order to pratice being good but then again Bad girls have all the fun *lol*. Don't knock yourself down, days like that happen. Today is an another day, always look forward & not back.

    Here to a great week.....Josée

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    Comment edited on: 8/16/2010 11:36:00 AM
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