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Friday, August 13, 2010

it was suggested that I do a blog about the stuff my weight is affecting so that I can read it and reflect on why I am working toward a healthier lifestyle.

My current issues are:

have a hard time sitting in the Key Arena seats at the Storm games and because of that don't want to get up and participate in the audience yells and chants. (as well get up to let people pass in front of me)

my back aches when I walk a lot and I like to walk but the extra weight is really hurting lately.

I am so tired in the evenings that I fall asleep on the couch at about 8:30pm or it goes to the other extreme that I can't sleep at all.

I am so big again that I had to by bigger pants just so that I had something to wear.

My thighs rub together so much that I am in pain often in the groin area. (that is gross but it hurts!)

I have a belly crease that I hate.

I get winded more easily than I had been because I have not been exercising as much.

I depend on other people way to much to motivate me...but currently I have no motivation, because I am not doing the "right" things.

I don't like the way I look in the mirror.

I don't like the way I feel and the lack of energy I am experiencing.

I am not a good role model for my daughter in the healthy/body image aspect although I am trying to teach her what not to do when she gets older. So at least I am trying without hounding.

I let my husband influence my choices and I should stay strong in my decisions but when he says I sure could go for "fill in the temptation here" and it sound soooo good it is hard to say "NO! We are having FISH".

I have very low mileage and have been in the garage for quite a while again and that has to do with both myself and my husband not feeling healthy. (Julie that was for you) Makes me very SAD.

I am going to a great water park this weekend and I am concerned about my appearance. I know I will have fun and mostly won't care while I am there but I will not be taking a ton of pictures like I usually would (I am a picture JUNKIE) because of the way I look/feel.

I hate how my mind knows that I want to lose weight and be healthy but it still screams "BROWNIES" at me.

I go through shoes way quicker now because of all the weight they have to handle.

I am sure the list could go on and on and on but I will stop here because I think I could get really nit-picky and I don't need to do that to remind myself why I want to be healthier.
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    I'm with Lollipam, it was super courageous to post this. You can and will overcome.
    4004 days ago
  • APRILA1073
    Hey Casey.. I feel ya! I am in the same boat. I have constant reminders throughout my house of why I need to work harder on making the right choices,
    I have my "skinny" dresses hanging on my closet door, I have my old photos on the fridge.. I still have moments where I make bad choices and well my belt notch reminds me that I failed that day..
    We all love you! And know that YOU CAN do this!!

    4005 days ago
    I love it!!!!! This is the time you are going to win, if you start doubting come back to me and I will kick you in the blog. You are just an awesome woman. Your skinny self wants out, mine too. We can do this! emoticon
    4005 days ago
    You are such a strong person , because you aren't afraid to admit your weakness. Stay strong, don't give up!! We are in this together.
    4005 days ago
    Wow! Very honest blog you have, LOVE it!!! I so can relate to you and the things you listed, plus some of my own~ like you I WANT to look better, feel better, be healthier, live longer but cave to those 'cravings'... interesting thing is when I do not have sweets after a few days i no longer want them... so why is it so tough to let them go?! UGH!

    Anyway take these things and turn them around, remind yourself how you felt, 5-10 pounds lighter and set goals to get there... get hubby on board too, then keep going from there... together WE WILL succeed in becoming the healthy ladies we desire to be!
    4005 days ago
    You are very courageous to put this all down in writing! You are a beautiful woman and you can do this!! Remember these things that make you unhappy now - use it as your motivation.

    Good luck in your journey!

    4006 days ago
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