Thursday, August 12, 2010
Not the show... although that was good too... but me. I'm Lost. I know that it's normal to be in a state of shock or disbelief at the loss of a parent.. but I'm really having a hard time of things lately... my nutrition has suffered, I've gained two pounds (at 212 now)... it's just so much and too much and I have no mental energy to plan, prepare or even eat properly. I should be most motivated right now... and yet I'm just not "there"... you know?
I can't even say that I'm "back" and "all ready to start again" ... but I'm not. I'm only posting this to let my SparkFriends know what's up and where I'm at... logging in food just seems so unimportant right now... you know? I mean, it's IS important.. I know it is, but I can't get my mojo going on doing it.. it's like Zumba, I know I love it... but I just have no energy to do it. *sigh*
So, that's where I'm at... keep me in your prayers, please.