I am struggeling!!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
I am Struggeling, really struggeling. I am eating everything in sight. I am gaining. I can't get myself undercontrol. I am just emotional binging and binging. Nothing is releiving that feeling. Even the binge's aren't making it go away. I think I have a problem here.
I said I was going to go back to 1300 calories a day starting yesterday. I think it was closer to 2200 by the end of the day. If I wouldn't have had all the stupid snacks and bites here and there I would have been under calories! Why do I do this to myself??? Can someone help me??? I am crumbeling inside. I don't know what to do except cry and eat.
I feel like a complete failure. Everyone tells me what a great job I have done and what an inspiration I am. Well here's to show no ones perfect. I need help, someone please! I don't want to go backwards any farther than I have already.