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lost and trying to love my true self

Sunday, August 08, 2010

I feel lost. I keep trying to jump back into dating world and find no excitement in any prospects. I never used to cancel dates and thats all im doing. Giving up on them before they begin. My eating hasnt been the best, although its not as bad as in the past. Still havent touched exercise yet. I feel like I dont even know who i am right now.
Yesterday watching this wedding unfold felt like a wake up call. Although I dont really agree with this marriage and worry about its future, they have one another. But first, they seem confident and know THEMSELVES.
People keep telling me that before I can find love, I have to love myself. I've always thought that I was confident and in fact loved myself but maybe i'm wrong. I'm not sure I really do know myself. I'm lost and I'm not sure how to find my way right now.
Totally rambling blog but thats just the mood for the day. Heres to trying to find my way.
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  • no profile photo CD1633912
    Being ok with yourself is a tall task. I too have to really focus on being alright just being alone (literally, sometimes knowing I am coming home to an empty house can be daunting). But it is something very worthwhile to conquer, I feel, in order to continue moving forward and growing as an individual. Hang in there, and if you can, do not even focus on dating, especially if it is forced, like online dating. This WILL happen for you, you just need to not focus on it. Easy to say, harder to do I know.
    3585 days ago
    I wish I could download all that I've learned and give it to you so you don't have to waste years of being young and pretty feeling lost.

    3588 days ago
    Stop looking and that is when it all will happen. emoticon
    3588 days ago
    Don't look too hard ... might be there and you're not even seeing it. I'm here if you need me.
    3588 days ago
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