lost and trying to love my true self
Sunday, August 08, 2010
I feel lost. I keep trying to jump back into dating world and find no excitement in any prospects. I never used to cancel dates and thats all im doing. Giving up on them before they begin. My eating hasnt been the best, although its not as bad as in the past. Still havent touched exercise yet. I feel like I dont even know who i am right now.
Yesterday watching this wedding unfold felt like a wake up call. Although I dont really agree with this marriage and worry about its future, they have one another. But first, they seem confident and know THEMSELVES.
People keep telling me that before I can find love, I have to love myself. I've always thought that I was confident and in fact loved myself but maybe i'm wrong. I'm not sure I really do know myself. I'm lost and I'm not sure how to find my way right now.
Totally rambling blog but thats just the mood for the day. Heres to trying to find my way.