day 29~not looking back~
Friday, August 06, 2010
I read all of your comments. I talked it out with my best friend and I really thought about how I feel. The truth is, she made her choice. She left me and my kids sitting here broken and the more I remembered the past, The more I realized I don't miss the way it was. I miss the way she promised it would be. I missed the way I believed it was and would be. The truth is, she had her ex girl friend come pick her up every time we fought. She didn't fight for us and stand by me and she wouldn't if she came back either. Im not even sure she knows how. I miss how I believed she felt about me but the truth is she has proven that's not how she actually feels or that she cant manage us if it is. She walked away and I am still holding onto a fairy tale that never manifested. I wanted and needed to believe her and I do not regret a day of it. I will always love her and what I thought we had. I will always cherish what we had because it showed me what I want. Someday Im going to meet my one. And when I believe she loves me more than anyone could ever love another it will be real. I wont settle for less than what i thought I once had. I know what I want and what I deserve!