today i'm grateful for spark people!

To all my fellow sparklers who read my blog, shared encouraging words, thier own stories, and gave me hope to keep going, THANK YOU!!!!!!! I was really having a rough day yesterday and not quite sure I wanted to post the blog, but something inside me just said DO IT!!! I'm so happy that I did. I've learned that if I don't give it away I can't keep it. So while all of you helped me, it is my hope that I too helped someone who was also struggling. It's hard to let myself be vulnerable to judgement, criticism, etc, etc, all those "bad" things I always play in my head that makes me afraid to share. Growing up I had unfortunatley learned that if I shared my true thoughts and feelings they would be held and used against me at a later time. My family didn't ever share feelings and in fact didn't show any feeling other than anger. Now yesterday's blog is definitly not something I would share on a facebook or myspace page but through everything I have read that other's here on spark people have shared and things I have shared previously, I felt comfortable enough to share some pretty intense and personal stuff. I know that this too shall pass and I won't feel this way FOREVER!!!! Although I'm still feeling crappy, today I am grateful that I found Spark People and all the wonderful friends I have made.



p.s. last night instead of crawling into bed and feeling miserable I was inspired by all of you to FINALLY finish my vision collage! It's wonderful, spectacular, motivating, and most of all It's all about my goals!!!!!!!