today i'm grateful for spark people!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
To all my fellow sparklers who read my blog, shared encouraging words, thier own stories, and gave me hope to keep going, THANK YOU!!!!!!! I was really having a rough day yesterday and not quite sure I wanted to post the blog, but something inside me just said DO IT!!! I'm so happy that I did. I've learned that if I don't give it away I can't keep it. So while all of you helped me, it is my hope that I too helped someone who was also struggling. It's hard to let myself be vulnerable to judgement, criticism, etc, etc, all those "bad" things I always play in my head that makes me afraid to share. Growing up I had unfortunatley learned that if I shared my true thoughts and feelings they would be held and used against me at a later time. My family didn't ever share feelings and in fact didn't show any feeling other than anger. Now yesterday's blog is definitly not something I would share on a facebook or myspace page but through everything I have read that other's here on spark people have shared and things I have shared previously, I felt comfortable enough to share some pretty intense and personal stuff. I know that this too shall pass and I won't feel this way FOREVER!!!! Although I'm still feeling crappy, today I am grateful that I found Spark People and all the wonderful friends I have made.
p.s. last night instead of crawling into bed and feeling miserable I was inspired by all of you to FINALLY finish my vision collage! It's wonderful, spectacular, motivating, and most of all It's all about my goals!!!!!!!