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Sunday, July 18, 2010

I haven't been on Spark for 36 days. At least that's what I was told when I looked at my SparkPage. It hadn't been updated for that long.

I lost 10lbs and I've managed to keep it off. I'm very glad of that. But I went into a period of funk. I know that the only way to change is to do it myself. But more and more I feel overwhelmed and unable to do it. Really, how hard is it to find 10 minutes a day to do SOMETHING? Not that hard. I'm just unmotivated. I'm mad at myself. I don't like feeling the way I feel. I don't like having this huge stomach that gets in my way and hangs down lower than it really ought to. I hate not having the energy or ambition to do things.

Why am I complaining. Its stupid of me to do. I already know how I feel...anyway. I have struggled for awhile with the Spark book. I finally decided I am going to try working on my Vision Board. I purchased some magazines and I need to go through them and find pictures that fit with my Vision Board. My life is so not where I want it to be. I wonder how I got here sometimes. I just hope that by making small steps I will achieve what I want.

So, I might not be around often, but I'm still working. I'm still trying and still struggling. one of these days I'll figure it out. emoticon
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    I've always loved the idea of a vision board. I didn't really create one, however I pulled a bunch of pics off the internet and have them in a folder on my computer. I'll use one as a background or just go into the folder & look through them for inspiration!

    My pics??
    - Pics of Carrie Moss in Matrix (i want her butt when she wears the latex pants!)
    - Jennifer Garner - I do adore her!!
    - Various pics of Angelina Jolie - not too-skinny, but healthy & looking good Angelina
    - Pics of corsets (my fetish & love)

    *smiles* I just went & looked through my folder... I'm feeling good about myself!! :)
    3931 days ago
    Small steps, one at a time.......you will get there. 10 lbs is a great weight loss and you should be so proud. Please don't give up......look forward and take a few additional steps each day. emoticon You might start out with making a list today of things you want to do tomorrow. Don't make the list too long....start with just 2 or 3 things. As you do them, cross them off. When the day's list is done, congratulate yourself......you will be moving forward. Nancy
    3931 days ago
    Ten pounds is incredible! Way to go. To get myself moving, I just say that I need to walk a mile and if I don't feel like any more, then I can quit. Usually at the end of those 10 minutes, I am ready for the next fifty or more. Small challenges and changes..... you will get there!!
    3932 days ago
    Thanks Lori. =)
    3932 days ago
    Congrats on losing 10 pounds
    3932 days ago
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