Friday, July 09, 2010
So I was totally motivated after I wrote my commitment blog yesterday, I ran 3.75m at 5mph(no stops) and played one heck of a softball game last night in the crazy heat. However, after that I was so pooped that I didn't complete anything else I said I was going to do. No boot camp video and no inventory list. For as much as I didn't want to tell on my self I made a commitment to be honest with myself and SP. So although none of you would have known if I was lieing or not I would have, and I just don't live like that today. I try very hard to not even tell the "smallest" lie because to me a lie is a lie, and I don't have to lie today. So my first day and I already messed up but I'm sticking to my commitment and not giving up. I know I can do this so I will continue. I did find something positive yesterday. I realized how much I truely enjoy playing softball and love the group of ladies that I play with. In the past I was always drinking alcohol before, during, and after the game that I really never thought much about how much I love the game, or how good I am, or what the other ladies are really like, what they bring to the game, how when I'm playing softball nothing else matters........... It was really cool last night when I hit a homerun and all the ladies were cheering me around the bases and high fiving after I came in. I felt so good, so satisfied, so grateful that I am able to play softball. It was crazy because in the past I would've just ran around, gave the high fives, and went back to drinking my beer not thinking twice about anything. So although I didn't complete two tasks I did gain a lot out of yesterday and that's ok with me.
Tonight I will do video's 1 and 2 to make up for yesterday and reflect on yesterday as well as I'm doing my daily inventory.