Thursday, July 01, 2010
Well, in my quest to earn sparkpoints this morning, I did a web search on a place I am going in a few days--sort of a mini-road trip with my daughter to the upper peninsula of Michigan. I was rather excited to find a riding stable in the area where we will be staying. As I read through the information, I noticed a "weight limit." Ouch! I am too big for a horse...I mean, it's not that I weigh more than the horse (thank goodness)....but I weigh too much to climb on the back of one. And I'm not even close enough to try to "pass" for the acceptable weight. That hurt!
This is yet another sad reminder of things I don't or cannot do because of my weight; things that I once enjoyed and was very passionate about doing--horseback riding, ice skating, skiing, amusement parks, etc. Simple things I took for granted.
However, I am not going to let this ruin my day or send me into a binge-eating, downward spiral as it would have done in the past. Today, I CHOOSE to react differently! I know I must continue my journey and keep making better choices each day with my food and my exercise. I know that all my weight-loss efforts from before have not been long-lasting and I regained every pound and more. This time must be different. In recovery, we say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting different results. So, I know I must "do" this differently for lasting results. I'm not on a diet, I am changing how I live so that I can enjoy my life and LIVE it to the fullest!
I thank God for my new attitude and determination to glorify Him in all things! I hope that in the not too distant future, I can post a picture here of myself on horseback or at the amusement park or doing whatever--in a healthier, slimmer body!!