JUST BLOGGING WHAT I FEEL
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
Today I am feeling really calm inside. It feels good and I know it is a place that I have been before. Whenever I feel like I am in control of the food I put in my mouth and that I am getting a nice amount of exercise, this feeling of calmness comes over me.
So why do I choose to interrupt it sometimes with emotional baggage and stress? Wouldn't it be logical that if I am feeling this nice smooth feeling, I would want to maintain it?
In keeping with my desire to change things in my life, I noticed this week that because I have a ton of different kinds of fresh fruit around, and some good veggies, I have been eating better tasting and healthier meals. Another no brainer, right?
Then why do I throw away all of my hard work on junk food, sometimes?
And here is another good example of keeping my life in harmony. When my house is clean, my gardens maintained, I also feel this happiness inside. I can look out my windows and see my hard work in the beauty of the flowers and the green grass.
So why do I tend to let these things go and then all of a sudden spend hours and hours just to get them looking good again. Why can't I just work at this a little bit everyday and be happy all the time?
hmm, I am noticing a pattern here. It is the pattern of stop and go. do and don't do. flow and stagnation. Not to dwell on this idea of obsessive/compulsive nature - but maybe this has something to do with it? Maybe the obsessive/compulsive label is a bit harsh. I think it is more of an impulsive/ procrastination combination.
The baby steps idea is really beginning to take charge in my head. I love it. Small consistent steps.