What am I doing???
Thursday, June 03, 2010
So in April I made it to 100 pounds lost and since then I have just slacked off. By no means am I even close to being done. But my eating habbits are creaping back up again, I control myself for this meal but the next one I get way out of control and then just say screw. My stress eating, which I thought I had under control has totally resorted to old habits again.
I am running a 5k on Saturday and I chose to stay in bed this morning and not run, knowing that I won't do anything tomorrow since it's the day before the race.
I feel like I am totallly sabotaging myself. I have to get back on track. Why does this happen? Is this something that I am going to have to fight forever? What is my problem? I ahve to regain control of this. I still exercise. It is a new lifestyle for me. But why have I lost control of my eating habits AGAIN?
WHAT AM I DOING!!!